So, it is 3rd period and I am sitting in the library. I am so annoyed right now, I think maybe blogging will help.
So there is this guy who is my so called friend, but he calls me fat all the time. He does it in a kind of joking manner, but it still bothers me. I am about 4' 11" and between 120-125 lbs. So, yes I know I am fat. i know I need to lose weight and I want to. I have tried and I know not hard enough.
I want to be skinny and have a pretty body. But I know even if I lose weight, I wont have a pretty body. Just skinny. Plus, if someone really likes me then they should like me for who I am and not what I look like.... you know?
So, today we had to take our senior pics for the local newspaper and while we were patiently waiting for them to be over, he said he was going to kick my skinny ass. I said,"I'm fat remember?" Then he said, "You look skinny today" pause. "April fools!"
and some other friends kind of laughed a little.
I really don't get it, these people are supposed to be my friends. So why the hell are they being so mean to me? I thought, "Hey, maybe he is insecure and needs someone to put down. But why not someone he hates? Why me?"
So after that I went to class and some really immature annoying 9th grader threw something at me.... like what the f@#$? I don't know you grow up! So I screamed at him and cussed him a little.
Well, I'm going to try to have a good day now and maybe I won't get kicked out of school for hurting anyone today.
I just want to hug you!! I feel bad that you have "friend" who decides to call you fat and enjoys making jokes of this. I wish I could say this changes as you grow but the way society protrays the perfect girl is sad. I do not know weight class with height but they way I look at is if you are healthy (not by weight either). I do hope your day is better and enjoy being a senior! It was the best year of my life and I truly miss it. Also, if I were you I would talk to my so called friend and let him know that being called fat is not funny in no way.
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awww thanks..
ok so hmm... i rele appreciate that.. i know im not perfect and never will be..
i wanted to say something to him but i knew i would blow up..
i rele dnt feel lik argueing with any1 right now.. i have other things to worry about but i will eventually say something to him.. hopefully calmly. lol..
i only have lik 20 something days of my senior yr left and im kinda ready to leave.
It sounds to me like this guy is not your friend. I know it's hard, but you really need to just stop hanging around him. What he is doing to you is very abusive. You've just got to start spending time with people and making new friends who respect you and make you feel good about yourself. A true friend is often times hard to come by in high school, but just hang in there and sooner or later, you'll make new friends and be happy with who you are because of it.
it isnt like he is my only friend we actually arent even that close..
but he is fun to hang out with when he isnt being an ass..
i really think he jus likes to pick on me cuz im easy to pick on..
but i told him today it bothers me... so i guess ill jus have to see if he stops..
if he doesnt then well he wont exist to me anymore..
I think he likes you. He just does not know how to express his feelings basically. What he doesn't realize is that calling you fat is a turn off and not a turn on. Even though you are short (like me. I'm 5'2'') you are not fat. Maybe you need to just tone your body a little instead of actually losing weight. I need to tone my body. When I was pregnantand at my 9th month, I weighed 160 pounds. Now I weigh 120 and i love it. But like I said I just need to tone a little. Truthfully I think you are already skinny enough. From the picture that you have on this site you look skinny. Don't worry about what people say.And I am glad you finally worte something. I was waiting to read one of your blogs.
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thanks for the comment..
i appreciate it.. but he is gay.. lol.. like literally.. so he doesnt like me..
dang 120 and had a baby.. lucky. lol.. although i have a friend that lost all her baby fat n lik a month.. maybe the younger u have babies the easier it is.. guess i gotta start having babies now.. lol.. jk..
yes i need to tone and lose but thanks..
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Let me just say, he is not your friend! Real friends don't say that. I am sorry, but I do not think you are fat. You may not be skinny but 120lbs is not that much! Just work out a little, do some toning, you may feel better afterwards. :]
PS go short people!
Après la pluie le beau temps. ♥
i would feel better afterwards i know..
i lost 20+ lbs once it was great i just gained some of it back after a break up with a boyfriend.. stupid i know but it happens..
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