I'm a blogger on ProU- Now I need a shrink!!

Okay, so we have very little time before the end of this scholarship driven session of ProU.  I would have to say that I would have never ventured in the world of blogging if it weren't for this competition.  I'm not sure if I will win....well by the way it looks, I'm pretty sure I wont.  Anyway, I have definately learned a lot about myself in these past 3 weeks and have taken a journey on a very emotional rollercoaster.

I am a laid back person.  I've always been outgoing, but when it came to real issues, controversial issues, I would set back and listen.  This site has allowed me to see that my opinions mean something and that I should stand up for something.  Really, if we aren't passionate about life and what we can do to improve life, it would make a pretty uneventful life.  I feel that this site has opened my mind and my eyes to a lot that is happening in the US as well as the WORLD.  Thank you all for contributing to my growth.

Now, I just want to ask, has anyone else felt like they were going crazy at times?  I mean, I at one point had to stop getting on here because it seemed that everytime I would read a blog, I wanted to explode.  I saw repeat blogs that drove me crazy, people attacking others, and well just some unproductive blogs.  At least that was in my opinion.  I started to see myself being more sarcastic and nasty in my comments, and I even went so far to write a blog about these emotions and use other people as examples.  I, thankfully, did not do that.  Before I submitted the blog, I read it and decided to delete it.  I realized that I allowed my emotions to get the best of me and I wasn't thinking logical.  It was actually pretty darn funny.  Here I was fighting with myself about the feelings that I felt.  I finally realized that like I have opinions, everyone else does too.  I was finally coming back to earth and feeling normal again.  I've always been an advocate of letting people voice their opinions and knowing that its a free country so they have a right to their opinions. 

Another obsticle I had to overcome is my very close friend would get onto me about blogging.  He'd say that I was wasting my time and that I was not being productive.  He made me feel like crap for being on here for hours at a time.  What he couldn't understand is that I feel this site is a wealth of knowledge and I would be stupid not to take advantage of all the resources at my fingertips, plus if I would win some money, wow, how neat would that be?  Anyway, it just took a toll on my emotions as well because I then started questioning how progressive I really was being.  I know that I wrote a blog about how blogging is progressive, but like I said I felt about 1 week in a half ago I was literally going crazy.  Plus, I had all these great ideas that I felt I could not share with anyone.  I was like wow this blog is great, oh but I can't tell my parents because they don't even know what a blog is, I can't tell my sister because she's against homosexuality, and I can't tell my close friend because well, he thinks it's a bunch of crap anyway. 

I guess I'm just trying to say, Thank you for reading my opinions and giving me yours.  I have learned to accept when people disagree with me, as well as how to give my opinion in a way that it will count. 

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