So this was the year of Hell.........
The first half of my Jr. year was ok.
I had been dating this boy Joshua for about 4 months or so.
This was about the time he started pushing me around and hitting me.
He'd mostly though make me feel like crap and tell me I was worth nothing.
Then in January the real hell began
I had a friend named Justin
and well point blank he raped me.
I didn't tell anyone for about a week.
and then I broke down infront of Joshua.
See the year befor his mom was raped.
so I know they could help me.
But I was wrong about him.
Joshua bascily blamed me for what had happened.
And he was suposed to be the one that loves me no matter what and support me and help me,
and he didn't he made me feel lower than dirt.
So long story short I had to deal with all that emotional crap that comes with doing that.
People that I would talk to would call me a victium
&I hated that.
I'm not a Victium of rape
I'm a SURVIVER of Rape.
I made it through.
And it just doesn't stop.
Its something that will stay with you forever,
But that's ok.
I learned a lot because of it.
I learned not to be so trusting.
I learned to rely on my friends and family who really do care about me.
But most of all gard my self.
And it showed me how bad joshua was treating me.
And so b/c of it I broke up with Joshua.
Yea it was hell
But you grow from pain.
And that's ok for me
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Thanks for sharing your story! You're right. Sometimes life can pretty much such. But you have to pick yourself up and learn from it. I'm very glad that you shared your story so that other women that have been raped can see that they really can overcome such terrible situations.
It's unfortunate that we must overcome bad times in order to gain insight or learn from those bad times. At least you were able to remove yourself from a bad situation by dumping that boyfriend.