How many of you have ever dealt with being depressed? I am sure at some point everyone has. Now how many have dealt with long periods of depression? I have and let me tell you it is no fun.
It started my freshman year of high school, I lacked confidence and was a shy person so making friends was not easy. I was also on the verge of failing all of my classes, because of this I was always stressed out and my parents were always nagging me to do my work. Then within a four month period I had two grandparents die, one of whom I was very close to. All of this combined was just too much for me to handle, and I became depressed.
Now I never was medically diagnosed with depression and I never went n medication, but I am positive that I was depressed. Just dealing with all of the days issues left me drained, and unhappy. I don’t think I realized it when I was going through my depression, but now looking back at it I see the problems I had.
Another reason I know I was depressed is because I could not stay happy. Sure I would have times where I was happy but as a whole I wasn’t. I know that it is unusual for people to be constantly happy, but it seems like I was almost never happy.
A few weeks after my grandmother died, the second one and the one I was close to, I started playing with fire one night. I took out a box of matches and made a small contained fire,that I could control. At the time I had no idea why I did it, but now I see that it was something under my control, something I had power over. It makes sense, everything else in my life was falling apart and I felt helpless, but with the fire I was no longer powerless.
Nowadays I am happy, my grades are fine, and my life is great. I really contribute it to going on my church’s mission trip the summer after my sophomore year. This experience showed me how bad other people have it and that there was no reason for me to be sad any more.
My reasons for writing this are not to get sympathy, I just want to inform you of what I and many other teens have, are, or will go though. If you or someone you know is dealing with depressed talk to somebody. I know that I didn’t, so I can’t really say that I works, but I wish I had because I believe that I could have gotten my life back a lot sooner than I did.
I understand what you are saying. I have gone and go through this and whenever I inform people of this they automatically think that I'm looking for sympathy. I'm not pathetic, even if I am depressed, and I don't need their sympathy. I suffer from something but I am dealing with it and trying to get better. For now that's all that matters because I'm 16 and will find my way eventually. Hopefully by then I will be truly happy
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i am who i am, no excuses, but i would like people to know that there is a lot more to me than just that girl they pass in the hallway without a fleeting glance
I am not sure i agree on everyone goes through depressions.
- actually, i can't say that everyone is happy either
- if people do go through depressions, I assume there are levels of depression and not all people are as depressed as others
- I for one, unfortunately had a very severe depression. I don't know how to explain it but it was like my mind constantly brought up bad memories, and problems. And i could never think of anything joyful. It felt like i was in a room with the lights off.
- I don't know what level your depression is at, but i think that if i had talked to people, i also would have gotten over it sooner.
I don't think everyone goes through depression. I do think that everyone has bad days, but some will never experience true depression. THere's a big difference.
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