It hurts so bad when you realize that all your friends you thought you had are not your friends at all and the sad thing is they didnt do anything bad for you to realize this. i went to church this past sunday and the pastor was talking about friends. He had started decribing to us what a friend was. Not a best friend or not even a realy good friend just a friend. he said a friend is someone who will be driving past your house and stop just to say hi. A friend is someone who will call you to see if your ok. Smoeone who will invite you places because they like being around you. A friend will do what evere they can to lift you up when your down because they dont like to see there friend hurt. As he went on and on about what a friend is I began to feel sad I even cried a little because i realized I had no friends. I know a lot of people but they are not my friends. none of my so called friends call me at all during the week unless they want something from me. they go on so many thrips but i am never invited but I can look at the pictures and tell they had fun. they can be driving right past my house and dont even stop to say hi maybe i'll get a wave out of them. its so sad the way people do you. then i got to thinking about how I have been a friend to others. have i done this to people who i call friend realizing i had all i could do was cry. but that night i went to another church and on the way the women i was riding with told me im one of her best friends. I asked her why and she said because i can hold a conversation without the subject being men. Because i always greet her with a smile and a hug. Because when she needs to talk im her ear. Because I am respectful modest and polite. As she was speaking I realized she was that same friend to me, and the only one except for god he is my friend above all friends but it made me so happy to know that i have a friend, a real friend that will be honest with me whos there to give coretion if needed a friend who sees my falts and loves me anyway.
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I have one true friend, her name is Ashley. Sometimes her boyfriend might be around but she is still my best friend. She comes to my house just to say hi. she will invite me places and she will be there whenever I need someone to talk to :]]
I am glad you realized you had a friend :]
so glad i relized this to. i could have ben mentaly damanged or something.
You make friends what you want them to be. If you want people there for you have them there for you. If they obviously don't want to be there than maybe they have things going on in their life. I know there have been people I have known in my life who are unreliable and thats because they have a life of their own. Thats the way the world works sometimes. There are some people who will be there to call you randomly while driving by your house but I can say those people can be really hard to find.
I am ashamed to say that I do not have a true friend or any friend who would go through such troubles for me. In the past, I've done that stuff to a friend of mine. Even though, I received nothing in return...I still did it because I truly wanted to be with her. But I soon realized she just didn't feel the same way. To her, I was an annoying distant friend who is trying too hard to be closer to her. I stopped caring so much and swore I wouldn't care for anyone again until they show me how much of a friend I am to them first. Sigh. Then again, I know my heart will not be strong enough. I'll probably chase for one true friend forever. I don't ask for much really. I don't need all those friends. I only want one.
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i feel you on that one I only want one and looks like she's been there for a while but we dont live in the same town byt we improvise. since yeaterday i have just started a relationship with my cusen that i hardly know. I hope things will work out between us.
I am glad you found a true friend. I have yet to find one. I have yet to find a friend. Like truelife90 said I will be looking for one probably forever. At this point I have just given up. I had been the best friend a good friend and it has gotten me no where.
reading this makes me sad. I now realize how lucky i really am. I do have friends that just call me because andi love my best friend we talk everyday on the phone for liek 2 hours.
Readint this mkes m really sad though, and if you relly want a friend you can massage me i'll be your friend, maybe not a best fiend but i'll talk to you randonlymaybe send a massage.
i know its not the same but i wouldnt mind at least tryingto be ur friend...