Why do people have to be so ignorant? Why do they have to never think about a persons feelings? Why is it that people are constantly making me feel like shit?
This started yesterday in Earth Science. Chris had a substatute. Jake had finished his assignment and had started to write in the book he had to make for Mentoring. I was on the last question of the assignment. He looked at me and said " Derek is coming with us so he can get some ciggarettes and we can drop him off. Then I'll drop the car off at the house and walk over there." Automatically anger burned in my chest. I looked at him " But you promised me that you would help me clean before my neice came. Plus I don't know when you will be home if you go over there. You know she will want to see you." He gave me a kiss and looked at me. "I'll be home at a reasonable time. I'll probley only be there about an hour or two." I shook my head and rolled my eyes. " You have no way to keep track of time"
"So?"
"So I don't know when you'll be home."
"I told you, not that long. Ill chill there for an hour or two then I'll be home, I'll help you clean before."
"Never mind helping me, just go."
By this time I am so irritated that I can't even describe it. Its nearing the end of class. I hear Wanda's voice over the old loud speaker.
"Joans class will have B lunch and at 10:55 J.P will have a short meeting for Juniors and Seniors who want to retake the M.M.E.."
Automatically my mind jumps to Nikki the little freshman twat who has a massive crush on Jake and who constantly flirts with him. He flirts back because he finds it funny. I get exteremly upset. "I dont fucking want B lunch..."
"Its ok it tells me."
"No its not, You'll be alone with her.."
Hes starting to get irritated now. The bell rings and I rush to get out of class with Jake calling my name. We argue all the way down the hall. I keep telling him I'm not going to class, that I'm skipping and going to A lunch. He says no and for me to go to class. My eyes start tearing up I'm so upset by this point that I yell at him that I am going home.
Anger burns in his eyes.
He rushes up threatening to kick my ass if I leave.
I'm scared of him now...
I rush past him to get away from him now. I am obviously going to class. Hes angry though. As I get near the stairs to Joans class he grabs the strap of the back pack on my shoulders. I get yanked by. He startes yelling at me and a teacher is trying to break it up now. She says she'll get the principle down here.
"No, its fine" he says.
He storms away and kicks open the door to out side. I watch him through the window as he reenters the school from the front. I race to catch up to him. Andrea stops me and asks me if I'm ok. I say I am and try to catch up to him. I see him comming back up the stair well. I turn around hoping to talk to him when he comes back up....I turn around and hes gone.'
I go to class.
In class some girls that Jake knows asks me to sit with them. They asked me what happend and I explained it andthey say they arent happy with him.
Part way through class I go to the bathroom. J.P stops me in the hall way. He askes me if Jake hits me. I said no, he grabbed my back pack and yanked me. J.P. goes on to how Jake needs to learn that he doesnt treat women that way. I later learn that J.P had threatend to kick Jakes ass if he ever did that again.
I go down to the meeting. Tommy knows about what happend and hes mad at Jake. At the end of the meeting I see Jake in the doors leading to the gym. I pass him in the hall a couple times and hes glaring at me. Finally we talk.
"Its over."
"What?"
"Its over, I'm sick of it."
"Your breaking up with me?"
"i just can't take it anymore."
It goes on and we finally make up...
I'm just so tired of being treated like crap....I wish he would grow up because I love him and wanna be with him.
