My boyfriend leaves to go to Iraq in one week. I am scared that he is going, yet i am jealous at the same time. He gets to do something that i will never get to do. Fight for my country. I have so many different thoughts going through my head right now and I will write them down now to sort them out. for all of you who have had a loved one leave to go to Iraq, you know how i feel now. I am upset that he is leaving me and i want him to stay, but at the same time, i want him to go so he can be happy.
I am mad that he will not be here for my graduation, senior prom, birthday, anniversary, or anything, but at the same time, my thoughts are occupied with the fact that i may never see him again. Is it selfish to want him here for those things when there is a chance he could die, and since there is, is that all i should thin about? if i dont, does that make me a bad person?
He packed today, and i cried. I have shed so many tears over him, and yet he still seems happy that he is leaving. i want to keep my relationship with him, yet, how can i when he will be gone so long and there are guys here. i love him and i dont want to lose him, and i also dont want to start over with someone else. I want to marry him and i want to have babies with him. they should have his eyelashes, green eyes, and my hair. I have it all planned out. I feel like a little girl when im around him because i get all giggly, flirty, and i dont know what to say. even though he has known me longer than any of my friends have and he knows me better. I love laying in his arms, and kissinghim. but i wont get to do that because he is leaving.
ANd what will it be like when he comes back? will things be the same, or will we find that we have grown apart? how does a person change when they see death all around them, when they walk outside the perimeter of american safety, when the go to bed, when they have to duck and cover because a bomb blew up near them and the schrapenel is flying everywhere. I cant imagine him going and i have a feeling he cannot imagine not going. This war affects everyone, even little me in my small city.
I love him and i will support him the whole time he is over there. and when he comes back, i will continue to support the troops that are over there, but most importantly, i will also support the troops families and loved ones. they should also be in the prayers and thoughts of the people. it is hard on everyone and it affects you, even if you think it doesnt. And even though he is leaving, he is leaving to protect people who were not protected before we went there, so even though i will miss him, GOD BLESS AMERICA.
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I know exactly how you feel! My husband was in the military for 5 years. He spent two years in Iraq. It's tough, I'm not going to lie. But what I can tell you is that right now he's freaking out too. (He may not show it yet... but he is.) Odds are he doesn't want to leave you but he has no choice. So he's just trying to deal with it. Before my husband left for the second time to Iraq he proposed. So I didn't get to see him for 5 months (He came home on leave) And we got married during the two weeks he had for leave. So we were married a week and he was gone again for another 7 months. It sucked. But I got to talk to him some via email and im... (the time change sucked though. I'd get up at 4 am to talk to him before he went to bed). If you are going to try to stay together you need to make that commitment to him and to yourself. The last thing he needs is to find out millions of miles away that you've cheated on him or your leaving him for someone you've just met. He has to be able to focus on what's going on over there and not be preoccupied with what's happening here. (Sorry this is a long comment ... but I guess I just get emotional over this stuff.) Anyways... what I ended up doing was keeping myself occupied. By that time I was a freshmen in college so I was working full time (35 hours or more per week) and going to school full time (15 credit hours). It kept me busy to the point that I didn' t think about what he was doing as much. (I'm not saying I never thought about it..) but it helped. Okay, I'm done taking up space on your blog now =)
Anyways... If you need someone to talk too feel free =) I've been there and done that. lol
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thank you so much! it is really nice to have someone who knows what im going through. i enjoyed reading your comment and i probably will end up contacting you one he leaves. that would help alot.
I remember when a really good friend of mine (The best I've had) left... but it was only for bootcamp, and it tore me apart. But I realized that te best thing I could do was be there for him.
If he's who you know that You want to spend the rest of your life with.... try to stick by him would be my advice.....
I don't know if you want advice or not, but I have some. First off, if you really love him that much, don't even think about being with other guys. It's not like you can't help yourself (like I said, if you really love him). Don't worry about whether he is going to die, or change too much. Worry about it, if it happens.
I completely disagree with this war but I can still respect soldiers and their families. Good luck with everything.
advice would be great, and thank you! and its cool that you have your opinion, and although it does not agree with mine, i respect you because you are not one of those people who disrespect the war by disrespecting our soldiers.
God Bless America. I hope you can stay strong through the relationship, are you planning to have the long distance relationship or are you in the process of deciding? Whatever you choose, take your time, and decide with respect to yoursel--for example, don't feel pressured to stay in the relationship out of pity-- =D What ever decision you make, I have faith that it will be the best one for you. =)
Hearing stories like this from people make the war even more real for me. Knowing that the war is effecting people that I "know" or am in relation to helps me realize that I need to keep on praying for the troops. So thanks.
yeah, im staying with him, im just gonna miss him alot. and im glad that i could help you.
I understand how you feel. My father was a Green Beret for 20 years. You just have to support him as much as possible and try to understand. Separation is hard, but it can be done.
I will keep both your boyfriend and you in my prayers! I wish you luck with everything your going through. I hope it all works out for you no matter what happens.