Okay, so, I'm a geek. I'm good at math and science and actually enjoy learning about almost everything. I like having discussions about history. I prefer to be reading or studying over quite a few other things. I'm a true geek. I'm not good at sports; I don't have any outstanding musical talents; I'm not outgoing or a natural born leader. I'm just a geeky girl who lives at school and church. And I'm wondering what's the point?
I push myself to take all these hard classes and I'm wondering when am I ever going to use them? I just want to be a youth pastor. You don't have to be smart for that. Being a teacher or a doctor or a lawyer or some sort of mathematician or scientist would let me use this brain and curiosity I was naturally given. Honestly, why was I born smart?
I don't have to study for tests. I get A's and barely pay attention in class. I do homework that's supposed to take at least an hour in half the time. It takes me about 30 minutes to write an essay. I understand things in my math class that my teacher says we won't get until later in the year. I barely even have to think in school and I excell.
If you think I'm bragging, maybe I am. But I am honestly wondering why I'm naturally smart. In our culture, there are so many expectations of us. Sometimes (or most of the time) being able to think for yourself is not one of them. We're told that everyone has a talent. Being smart is usually not considered one of them. We revere people endowed with wonderful musical gifts or athletic abilities or a natural ability to lie and pretend or uncommon beauty or charisma. There are a lot of times that I wish that I had one of these abilities.
But I don't. I'm just a geeky girl. That's who I am. I so often wish that I weren't known as the smart girl or the good girl but I am. So, I'll just be that geeky girl and have the best time of my life doing it. And when I become a youth pastor, I'll find some way to put my geekiness to good use. Have to use what I've got.
Until then,
That Geeky Girl
What's the Point of Me Having a Brain?
By conflicted_rose - Posted on November 1st, 2007
God has given you the gift of intellect. Don't waste what you are given just because you don't see a need for it in the vocation you wish to be involved in.
Why would you have to limit your education to your vocation? It might not be much of a challenge to you to acquire the qualifications to be a youth pastor, but what areas of study would allow you bring more beneficial skills to your vocation?
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It's not that I just want to be a youth pastor. I'm really passionate about it. It's just that I've been questioning myself based on what other people have said. I've had teachers, friends, and mentors question this decision and it's made me question it too. I wouldn't have to limit my education but I'm just wondering how I can really bring these skills to what I want to do with my life.
I wonder if someone put the label on you or you put the label on yourself. You're saying that you're a geek like it's a bad thing. Actually, many of us like being a nerd. It shows that our intelligence is above average in many people's eyes. But I think we are not smarter. Some of us try harder to get up to the top, some of us understand the material better, some of us are more passionate about the subject at hands. No one is born smart or stupid. Perhaps some of us receive special gifts. However, anyone can be like us if they try hard enough instead of wasting their life away. Besides, smartness is not only measured in academics. There are different types of talents and abilities in people. Most of us just do no realize it yet.
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I like being smart but I'm tired of that being the only label I've really got. I feel like that that's not all I am but that that is how others see me. Being smart isn't a bad thing at all. I just wish it weren't the only thing I had going for me.