May 11 1997 11:26 pm
Lately I have been really been confused with the rest of the world. Actually I have been really tired because I have been working the hospital and Piasa and it is just draining me of all my energy. I am about ready to tell Piasa good bye. I could manage without the money. Besides when I transfer to the storeroom were John works. It will be Monday to Friday and I can find a better weekend job.
It was weird the other day. I got home from work and I had been depressed about Val, when I got a post card from Dawn. (I still can not get over Val.)
Well I turned 29. One year older and one year colder. It is weird when I think about all the shit that has happened this last hear. It makes me wonder what this year is going to be like. I guess I will have to wait and see. God and Goddess help me.
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There is nothing wrong with being out of sync. Why would I want to be just like the rest of the gene pool? I take pride in having the courage to be different. Different is good. It is what makes the world such a fun place to live in. There will be heart aches, and there will be lost friendships. There are also new relationships and better friendships.
We all go through life looking for help. Some look to religion, some to philosophy, but what ever methods that you use, give it your all. Having turn 39 I realize that life does not give you a play book. You make it up as you go along. Some times you get sacked and on those rare occasions you score the touchdown. If you’re really lucky you nail the extra point also. The thing to remember is that when you get knock down; pick your self back up. You never know how long it will take, ten second or ten years. As long as you are still standing, then you will not get run over.
Some people affect your lives in such a way that you will never forget them. I have met some and even fell in love with a few. Each one was just as out of sync with the rest of the world and that is just fine with me.
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