for the first time in a long time, i'm feeling helpless.
and i can't do anything about it.
i don't know what it is.
a feeling of disappoinment?
the feeling of letting people down?
the feeling of nothing?
i can't do anything about it, it's something that's been eating me up inside, and i don't know who to talk to about it. yeah, i know there are those friends that are there no matter what, but can they really understand what i'm really going through?
lately, i've been caught up in so many different aspects of life, that i'm not even sure what i'm doing anymore. i know it may look like i've got it down, but i really haven't. i'm still a kid, trying to pick up after myself, learn from the mistakes i've made, and trying to do things to make others happy. i've been through this before, this isn't the first time, but i feel like it's a never ending story, a work in progress, you can call it, "a never ending feeling."
why is it that i'm put in a situation where i can't be myself? or even try and fit in with the people of my surroundings? again, it may look like i am, but look closer.
it's only the beginning of my last year of high school, and i haven't thought about what life will be like after, and i don't want to. i don't want to think about what i'm leaving behind:
-my parents, brother, and family
-friends
-ALL memories made
i just pray to God that He will help me get through this again.
i don't like doing things on my own, i need someone there to go through my tough times with, or someone to help me get through it, but who? there's only one person, and that person risked his life for my own.
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