Every morning I wake up and ask myself "How did things go so bad for me and what is the purpose of me waking up every morning besides to check myspace?" Then I go outside and smoke me a cigarette and wonder if things are every going start getting better because the way things are going now it just doesnt seem like it. When I graduated high school in 2005 i went straight to college. A couple months after school started, I was able to get a good high paying job. I was working at Walmart making 7.25 to start off which is good for a college student who is in school. I was getting 35-40 hours a week and was keeping my grades up the first semester. I was making new friends at school and work, saving money up and i was able to buy things I wanted and buy the my bills. Then the following semester my grades started to slip. Working 8 and 9 hour days and working to 11 everynight finally caught up with me.
So the following summer when I tried to go back to school, I had to pay because I was on probation. So I didnt go back to school I said "forget it". So I keep on working at walmart till August of 2007 when things started following apart. Started having problems with my parents and then I got fired from my job. So I was unemployed for bout a month or so when I got at a factory which sucked but I though threw it because the money was good. Then in November I had this great idea I wanted to go back to school in January because I realized that I didnt wanna work in a family the reason of my life. Two of my boys worked at Sams Club and Sams pays more than Walmart. So I figured that I should be able to get on because of my experience and my boys worked down there. So after I talked to my daddy and he said he was cool with me quiting the factory. I put my two weeks. Then my plan fell apart lol. Sams would not hire me for whatever reason but since it was around christmas time I figured I could get on anywhere. Well that didnt work either lol so I was jobless. Great plan right? Then I had some more expenses come up out of nowhere and was broke again lol.
January came around and it was time for school to start back. Ok I am broke, no support from my parents, and no job so things cant get worst. Well 2 of my 4 classes i get require that you do homework online which sucks because I can not afford to pay the books. Not to mention I couldnt get any money from parents so I had to get together change every week just to go to school .So ok I will get my parents to co sign on a student loan so i can get the money thats a no lol. then I tried to get them to sign a student loan where they would sign it just to get me a low interest rate and then once i graduate or whatever they would be released from the loan, NO!!!!! Well I will try to get a loan without them NO!!!!!!!!! Ok then I got a new job at a grocery store. ok ok things cant be that bad. Well this job pays nothing and i was getting like 20 hours but at least I am working lol. Well I had to drop 2 classes and owe the school 950 dollars for tution. Well I still havent paid there money to them and have to August to pay for it, my job just stop working me for no reason. I havent worked in over 2 weeks, i cant get hired on anywhere right now, my car is falling apart. I need new tires, a new window motor, need my air fixed and so on. I have no cell phone because i cant pay the bill, i need new clothes and I only have third dollars in my name lol.
Every day i have stupid bad happen to me. I know my problems dont seem like much to some people but to me it is. For someone who has never really struggled this is rough for me. Even though I wanna give up I am going keep holding on a little while longer because things have to change right.
Things will get better just hold your head up and try to stay positive. I am only getting about 10 hours a week but I don't have a driver's license (not on my top list of important things and I am worried) so I have to keep the job. i am working on my license. i am struggling to pay for college as well. Hang in there it will get better. Word of advice don't quit a job until you know for a fact you have another one. I used to do this and I was unemployed each time for 3 to 4 months. I would rather not work and focus on school but we all have to work. Everything will work out.
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All problems don not seem like a big deal to others but they are to you. Other people don't have to experience the pain and worthlessness you feel as a human being. If everyone had to experience everyones problems then they could understand.