i don't know what it is today. i feel worn down by the sands of time. they have been scraping me a long time now. the winds that power them have grown ever stonger. cutting away at myself. a little piece here and chunk there.
in the end i feel like i will be but a pebble. a shadow of what once was a great mountain. it seems to me that they will never cease, with constant ebb and flow of time. eventually they will bring me down. i will succumb to it, and it won't be merciful. it will not take pity on me nor will i myself.
i do not know what to do with myself these days. everything seems so pointless. all i can do is try to make others happy or proud. what if i am not happy or proud with myself? will i have then failed the people that care the most for me??? yes, i will. no, i don't want to. yes, i will try not to. no, it won't be in vain.
in the end it won't matter. at all. for it will all be gone. these feelings of inadequacy, torment, listlessness. also feelings of joy, unbridled happiness, bliss. this body, this mind, this soul. gone. never to be seen again.
reality is for people who can't cope with drugs.
STICKS AND STONES ARE HARD ON BONES.
AIMED WITH AN ANGRY ART.
WORDS CAN STING LIKE ANYTHING,
BUT SILENCE BREAKS THE HEART.
NORMAL IS JUST A SETTING ON THE WASHING MACHINE
by the way, this isn't a thinly veiled suicide note. i think this has just been pent up in me for a while. also i think that i may flood this website with further, less progressive blogs...
Yours Truly,
.demosthenes
Any blog that you post will always be progressive. Whether it is one that you feel passionate about or bad about. Being progresssive does not mean that everthhing you do is perfect. Progressive is like a roller coaster. You have your ups and downs, corcles and straight ways.
All those imperfectins create a beautiful diamond in the ruff. I would rather purchase a diamond with some history behind it than a diamond with flawless history of boresome. For a person that has not been on the site this long, you are doing pretty good. When I was first on here, I had no clue where to start from.Then I slowly started progressing.
at least i am getting it from some people. i think that most people tend to forgo what a blog actually is, most people on here use it more as a journalism type device, and tend to shy away from just straight blogging.
Yours truly,
.demosthenes
Normal isn't normal at all.
Just be yourself. Who cares if everyone else is disappointed? That's their perception of things, yours is the only one that you absolutely have to live with.
F*** Religion. Read more here:
http://www.progressiveu.org/020528-f-religion
sometimes i wonder if i am truly insane. but i guess that pondering my mental state, is proof enough that i am not completely crazy.
Yours truly,
.demosthenes
Aww that poem is too cute. I have never heard that before. Nice blog though and very unique.