January 13, 1997 2:14 am
It has been about two weeks since I last wrote in my journal. Don’t worry you did not miss People tell me I am looking for love but I really am not doing anything at all. I work and then I go anything important. Nothing except my usual messed up life.
home. If that is not looking nothing is. Get this Kelly wants to put and ad out in the dating network on cable TV and mind me a girlfriend. So she wants me to write up an ad, I did it just to please her.
Friday, I had one of my think about Val and get depressed sessions. All I know is 1996 will be one of my most joyful and painful memories.
Damn it! It is not fair. I loved Val and why am I made to suffer? Another point I feel I must bring up is this. Am I obsessed with Kelly? Who knows? What do you consider obsessive behavior or just strong attraction?
It seems to me if I am myself I don’t meet any women, and the ones I do meet they are already taken. This bull shit just makes me madder, and with each heart break I get colder and colder. It is all bull shit! What I need right now is to talk to Val and have her cheer me up but the trouble with that is I will eventually feel depressed again. When will it end?
T
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I think the biggest problem people have about not meeting people is this. If you don’t get out and make your presence known then you have no chance of people meeting you. As much as I like my friends, just hanging with them all the time, does nothing for my stagnant social life. I like to be out where there are people. Even if I don’t talk to anyone, there is always a chance I could meet someone new or if the planets are aligned the right way, someone I could ask out.
The human race is a social species. Being alone may be OK for some but not for me. I love talking with others about anything, for hours on end. That is something I can not do if I am by myself. Sure there is the internet (ironic considering the internet is how I get this blog out.)
I still think the world is head for a shift if the way we think and act. If we just get all our thoughts and actions synchronized.
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