Dec 5, 1996 12:24am
I have tried to call Linda but no one home, or she was home but ignoring me. That is one thing I hate about caller ID. If you don’t want to talk to someone, don’t answer the phone. She could at least find out what I wanted.
I know Carrie is mad at me for some reason. I wanted her to talk to me but for some reason it looks like will have probably have to talk the fist step. I just hope I can get though to her.
Sometimes I can go long periods without thinking of Val then sometimes I can not get her off my mind, with a thousand questions unanswered.
Does she miss me?
Does she still love me?
Will there ever be a next time?
I know it is better to cherish the time we had together but it is so hard. I still want to Denise out but I can never get her alone to ask. Maybe I should call her when I know she is at work.
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The things about having people mad at you and you don’t know why is this, you what to try and fix it. All my life I never had anyone mad at me, not when I did not know why they were mad. I want to try and find out why. I want to smooth thing over
Now I would just want to tell people who are mad at me to kiss my ass. If some one is made me, then that is there problem not mine. If I did something wrong and I know it, I will me a man and apologize. If I know I did nothing wrong or if they don’t want to tell me, Screw Them. They can me mad at me all they want. I am satisfied with the knowledge that some one who is mad all the time is just making unwanted stress for themselves, and it is having a bad affect on there heath. Get the F*ck over it! Be mad, let it pass, and get on with your life. You can bet that I am not worrying about it more then you are. I have moved on.
If my former fiends are still mad at me so what. I don’t care. They made me feel like I was the bad guy. I gave them that power, never again. I refuse to let someone make me feel that low over something I did not do. What the hell was I thinking?
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You can't change how someone else feels, you can only change how you react to others' feelings. It sounds like you have the right attitude!
Fortunately, with most of my family and friends, if someone gets mad, it is temporary and they get over it wicked fast with no butt kissing needed. Just a quick "sorry" and we move on. People who hold on to their anger are only hurting themselves. Why torture yourself over their feelings?