Baby I'm back!

I'm back to writing more journal entires again. What with school being done and all it's completely opened up more free time. I realized this year a lot of things that I had never thought about before that have made me a better person..
      Thanksgiving for example really made me aware of how much I have to be thankful for. Especially since my grandfather was able to function on his own  then. it's just crazy in my mind how quickly time works. How fast things can change. My grandfather was able to walk and talk, and if he needed assistence it was minor, yet in the short time since Thanksgiving my grandfather's condition became not so positive. He can no longer walk on his own and is becoming extremly senile. It's sad and hard to watch, I just hope he's not in pain. he's in a nursing home right now and my only hope is that for Christmas he is well enough to come home. I mean my mind just keeps going back to the fact that he will be in a nursing home for Christmas and that's just not fair. I mean everyone should be with family, but currently he can't walk and no one can carry him around and such if he were to need to use the bathroom and such. It's just sad, because none of my family is able to care for him. We tried coming up with different options for him to live with family, but there was no way that any member of my family could constantly be with him and care for him. the only option we had was a nursing home and I don't know.. It just really bothers me that nothing can be done...
       I also realized I have some good friends then some friends that I really don't care for. They don't respect my choices in life and decisions and it isn't cool. I mean if I don't want to do certain things that you do.. at least do what I do and respect my choices. It seems like now some people want to force people into positions that they deem fit and if the person doesn't want to, then they get upset about it. One of "my best friends", decided that they wanted to have a night out, with three girls and get drunk and act completely recklessly going to a strip club and such. I said from day one that she told me about this plan that I wanted no part. Two girls and I going to a club and drinking would be irresponsible and stupid. But yea they keep trying to force me to go along by trying to make me feel bad. By saying things such as, "I would really appreciate if you would come." Well I would really appreciate if they would appreciate my opinion.
        In other news not all is bad, I have an amazing boyfriend who cares about me more than members of my own family have shown they do. That's something I could never imagine before and it's a great relief to know there's someone out there that cares for you and would do anything for you. It just makes things seem easier and less burdensome.
        I have been bordening my horizons and learning about different things that I think have helped to make me a more diverse person. I have learned more about basketball, religion, helping others and have begun to read more again. I just seem to have found more ways to manage my time. I have also decided to go to the gym more to be healthy. I'm trying to look past the bad now and try to live life and make a difference in the world.
        Well back to watching Cocktail for now.. maybe in a little bit I will write another post.