Sometimes in our lives we are presented with turning points, which are seen as both blessing and curse. I have had two of these just within the past 4 months, both of which hit me hard and feel like the most bitter curse, but I am trying to make the best of them and use them to turn my life around. In September, I was arrested for DWI and at first it felt like the worst possible thing that could happen to me, but i learned from it. I thought and thought about my life on that tiny jail cell bunk bed and i couldn't figure out where I went wrong, but i thought about my prospects and my future and came to the conclusion that at that point in my life, more than anything I needed to be sitting in a jail cell. I needed to change and rethink where my life is headed. Since then I have cleaned up my act and it feels good, being sober and living life as it should be lived. Now, tonight, I am getting hit with the hardest part of life. My best friend was killed in a car wreck on his way back to school. We were like brothers and would have given our lives for the other, no question. I think that the best way for me to cope with this is to take it as a turning point. I want to better appreciate the people in my life, most importantly my family and friends. The only thing i could think of doing after i got off the phone with his mom was to hug my parents and my little brother and let them know how much i love them, because in a heartbeat i could be taken away from them, or them from me. the hardest thing to comprehend is why it happened to him. I told my dad that it just didn;t feel right: I was the one who was always screwing up, going to the hospital for alcohol poisoning and getting arrested for DWI, I was the stupid one, the reckless one. I feel like I should have died before my best friend died. I want to do something with my life, make a real impact on someone's life. Live life while you can, do something with your life, because next thing you know you may not be here. The whole thing sounds really corny but maybe someone can take it seriously. I just kinda needed to vent i guess because the past 2 hours have been the worst of my life.
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Hey man, you said something about my poem and how you thought they sent those to everyone. That may or may not be true, but that's not the point. One of my poem's is actually going to be in a book, and people will read it. That's the point.
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Just to say something about the DWI. I know how you feel man. I had one, they called it a DUI but it was a DWI. I was high on weed. I've been in a whole lot of trouble, but the DWI things stay on your driving record for 5 years, effect your insurence, maybe even jobs, and the cops seem to want to pull you over if they run your plates.
So I know where you're coming from on that. Hang in there man.
Matt Cable
aka
Dj Crykit
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