January 25, 1997 10: 57 pm
Well life sure has a funny way of throwing curves at you. Just when you think you figured out one thing something new comes along.
I had thought Val was the women I wanted share my life with. Then Kelly still sparked some interest in me. Now we come to Laurel. I first met her 12 years ago when I was in the Civil Air Patrol. She was friends with Ted L whose sister I dated. At the time both of our lives were different from what they are now, and back then we would never have dated, like now. It all started last Sunday on the 18th. She came in where I was working. I had seen in her before, but that night I asked her for her phone number. I call her Monday and we talked for a bit. Next came Tuesday, I called her again and we ended talking on the phone for 3 hours. That is when I found myself attracted to her. Now we are up to Wednesday, I went to her apartment and we were getting close. I then took the initiative and kissed her. That whole night we held each other and snuggled. Now Friday night I met her after we both got off work, went back to her place and then we eventually made love.
From what we have talked about she is not looking for a relationship but if it happens on its own, she won’t stop it. Personally I think she is really starting to be attracted to me but does not want to completely commit herself just yet. As for me I keep telling her what ever happens I will deal with it. I don’t want to jeopardize the good thing I have now. We will just have to wait and see. So until next time, who knows?
T
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I wish I could say, “She was the one”, I can not. It was more like “She was the one right now.” It was a rebound relationship. The funny about having a rebound relationship is when that one does not work out then the next girl is the rebound for the rebound. This starts a never ending cycle of rebounds with out any one making the basket. When does it stop? Do we ever get over the people we once dated? Is there some small flame left?
I don’t think it there is a flame, more like a lingering memory. You had to like the person for some reason or you would have never dated that person in the first place. Hell I still love the love the last person I dated. I just can not get the memory of her driving down the road to move back east. She made a choice. It would be easier if I was mad at her but I can’t. She was what I need at the time, but she was not the one.
Will I ever find the one or will she find me? Who knows? I just will have to keep an eye out so if the one does pass by I don’t miss it.
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I hope things work out for you. That's a really tricky situation to be in. The guy I care about finally told me he loves me...which was great to hear. But even just 1 year ago I never would have imagined that a guy that lives 700 miles away from me and has interests that are the polar opposites of mine could capture my heart so completely, or at all. I think it's so weird to be able to look back on things like your dating situation and see how quickly things can change in so short of time.
Thing work them out when you least expect them too. So as of today I have other thing to keep me busy then worrying about my social life.
oh I know what you mean b/c I was definitely not expecting things to work out like this. but it's nice...it gives me something to think about and a good reason to be looking forward to summer when we get to see each other