Since I was young, I have always been shuffled around from school to school, forced to make new friends each and every time I did so.
About five (5) years ago, our family finally settled down in a small town. I was, for the first time in my life, able to make friends that I would know for more than just one school year. What a great concept! That is, until I realized that maybe making short-term friendships were better.
When I first moved here, I met this girl who lived around the corner from me and was in the same grade that I was, she immediatly offered to help me out at school. Little did I know that I should have stayed away from that offer. For a year I hung out with her and her friends, and my friends too I guess, but it never really felt right. These weren't the friends that were there to support or even care about anything that had to do with me at all. We just went to school together, ate lunch together, went home, and sometimes we would hang out at each others houses but that was really it. After that year, we all went to high school and our group disbanded, only leaving the girl who lived around the corner from me and myself. I honestly believed that this girl who lived around the corner was my best friend. Until this year, I realized that she wasn't really my best friend. We hung out together at school, but we never really hung out outside of school. Along with not hanging out outside of school, we barely talked to each other at school, and when I did used to talk to her, she never really showed response. Things were finally getting to the point that everything was getting ridiculous, and I finally decided to start hanging out with other people. I didn't feel guilty about my decision either, because after that, I found out that for two (2) years she had been secretly been good friends with this girl who had spent the last two years of high school trying to, metaphorically, smear black paint on my name, and was also going around saying the most atrocious things about me. I just figured that since the girl around the corner was my best friend that she wouldn't have associated with someone who would do things like that to me, but I guess I was wrong, and I paid the price.
After that, I tried hanging out with my "best friends" from my sports team at school. We had talked about everything during the season and hung out outside of school and had sleepovers and everything, but when it came around to me hanging out with them, it seemed like I wasn't wanted there. I would just stand around in the group and not be incorporated into the group, despite many attempts. One of the girls I had known since my freshman year, and we could really relate about basically everything, but she always complained about her two friends that she had known since junior high. I had always figured that I was a better friend to her than the other two were, just because I was there for her when her other friends didn't want her. But it seems to me that I was strongly mistaken. I was completely ditched for those two girls when they weren't mad at her anymore or when they felt like being good friends with her again. The other girl I had gotten to know really well at the start of this school year. She told me everything that happened to her, and I did the same thing and we were always able to give each other a lot of good advice. But then she got an upperclassmen boyfriend and she started hanging out with a new crowd, the other girl from my sports team and her two friends. I should have seen it coming, but I immediatly got ditched for them too. She stopped telling me about what happens to her and I was the last person to find out when her and her boyfriend broke up.
Luckily, I have actually found someone who I really think is a true friend, which seems so difficult to find. Everyone you know has spoken horribly about someone who they claim to be their "best friend" or "brother/sister for life". My experiences these past couple of years has really shown me that no one can really have a true friend, but you can have what you call a "best friend". I now know just to be careful when it comes to interpreting my friendships and actually believing in the goodness of people, and I believe that no one can really have a lot of "best friends", because having a "best friend" is just an illusion.
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I could kind off relate. Once this school year had started my " best friend" just stopped calling me and talking to me. I don't know why if last year we were very close..
I feel you. I moved around a lot, too and it was hard to find friends that were really my true friends. I have made so many short term frienships that I feel terrible because I don't really keep in touch with them anymore. I have made some good friends now but it's hard for me to connect and make it an even greater friendship since I'm so used to having short term frienships.
Be patient. I attended 10 schools before high school was over and made my best friends at the 7th one. After moving away a ton of times, even to England and back, when I came back they were still my best friends. You will find it, and when you find the true best friends you'll know it. You'll feel like you've known them forever, even if you just met them. They will be the ones who are still there in the end after tough times. And as time wears on, you'll find yourself having been friends forever, and it will continue, even after you're adults, that's who the true, lifetime friends are, it'll happen.
Forget real "friend", it sounds like you have yet to meet any real people! But it seems that that's all secular youth cares about, themselves.
I didn't make any real friends until I had spent a year or two developing by myself as a person- once you find strength and confidence in who you are, likeminded people (and those who simply admire you) will flock to you.
The first of the flock, the like-minded people, the real human beings (who care about more than themselves), will be real friends. It might suck being alone for a while, but it sucks a whole lot more being in a crowded room and feeling truly alone.
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~ Raven
"I don't care" ....
is a serious misreading of my attitude.
Well I know how you feel, I really do.
I can honestly and truly say I have some of the greatest friens there is, they are true friends. I was luckily enough to figure out who I was when I was around 12, I know what you're thinking thats a bit young to have your life figured out but I did, I know who I am, what I want, and how I am going to get it. I was blessed with finding great friends, they [as situations have proven] will do anything for me and they really do love me [never will they let someone try and smear my name.] but even through it all I know they love me they have shown me that but that doesn't make me feel important to them why? because well I'm always left alone theres always more important people needed them more important things to do. I mean they will be there for me as long as they have time.
Honestly there has only been one person who I considered a "best friend" but all she has ever done was do me wrong. She supposedly loves me so much and whatnot but in reality [this is what sucks about being an empath its hard to let someone down] she always did things she knew where going to hurt me, ditching me for her ex-boyfriend [which always ended up being a stupid thing to do because she would get hurt and guess who had to fix it] but she repeatedly did that. Being an empath I can't let her down, stop being her friend [as so many of my true friends have suggested] but its just that she doesn't know the meaning of being a good friend, she expects me to be there for her whenever she needs it but when I need her its like where'd you go?
Anyways I'm glad to say I am a true friend, the best you can have.
Change is emminent lets face it the world is in for a serious awakening
I know exactly how you feel. I was treated in somewhat of the same manner. I had a friend who got a boyfriend and ditched me and her old friends. It's hard but we find a way to get thfough it.
i no how u feel. i even wrote my own blog about my story.