haven't been here in awhile!

Wow, there were days when I would come to this website and post blogs. I got discouraged because nobody ever really said anything helpful. I mean I can understand if you don't understand what the "f" I talk about or even if you think I'm weird or whatever...but express it to me intelligently in a way that will be helpful or meaningful to me, or just don't even bother. I've always been this way. I always think I'm above everyone...smarter than the average bear. I'm sorry. I guess that I don't want to waste my mind power on some thoughtless reply. When I reply to people's post, I say something helpful...I think? hahaha. I don't even know what the heck the point of this blog is. Oh yeah. Barack Obama is hot! Sorry, had to take out some trash w/ that last sentence. Sometimes, i write things to get the junk out of my head and clear out the old, outdated ideas, so that I can see the fresh and new ideas that are sprouting up all the time! hahaha. It's ok, if I lost you somewhere in the first word of the first sentence, that is what I'm supposed to do! And no, I don't want a frickin medal or something. Jks. Anyways, if you don't know what Jks means then you're aren't where I'm from! I'm from a beautiful place...a mountain valley...surrounded by huge mountains in the east and small, rounded hills on the west...gorgeous. some days it is so beautiful here...I can't believe that I was put to live here. I thank God every day for the gift of this land I call home. then I think about...how much my ancestors lost in terms of land. Then I'm all like...WHY? What the heck did my ancestors do to deserve such a thing happening to them....sometimes I think of my Native people suffering from a single adjustment disorder...it's just a short term disorder that is very treatable. Sometimes people recover from adjustment disorders on their own. Sometimes, they need help. Sometimes, they don't recover and get worse. I believe that if you're not tough, you have no business in this world! "Every struggle, whether won or lost, strengthens us for the next to come. It is not good for people to have an easy life. They become weak and inefficient when they cease to struggle. Some need a seires of defeats before developing the strength and courage to win a victory." - Vitoria, Cheyenne
Anyways...I know that I am doing what little I can to begin to change the face of Native people in this country. I'm good enough, smart enough, and doggone it people like me. just playin...u all remember that skit on saturday night live? I forgot where I was going with all of that adjustment disorder stuff. I got into thinking about it as I write this exam for abnormal psychology...that class is crazy! literally...the teachers the students...everyone except me! ahahaha just playin...actin schizo. seriously, though....wow schizophrenia was a fun topic to tackle in class. Watching videos of people with purposeless and aimless behavior...sometimes spouting off the most incredibly deep thoughts I've ever heard...then doin some crazy shit the next instant! Hope that don't happen to me! hahaha. I just laugh about it. that is fucked up. that is like some serious stuff and i laugh about it. that is the rugged reservation indian in me who has seen it all enough to be able to find the most depressing things funny... I guess if you understood that then you must be where I'm from...this earth.