Attitude is Really Everything
I never thought I would use such a lame cliche'. It is really true. I used to be really hard on myself because I had such a mean mother. I would perfect and over think to a point of no return. I was so depressed that I felt I had to feel this constant void. I had to prove something to myself that was essentially irrelevant. I found myself hurting more in the end. Over the past few years being in college has helped me find out who I am. Also who I used to be.
I read some of the blogs about peoples family situations that drive them crazy. I thought I should shed some light on how destructive that can be. When I was just a young girl i was so sweet. I would make cards for my mother daily. I would cook her breakfast in bed. I wrote her poetry just to show her I love her. Then I found out my mother was a heroin addict. I was torn emotionally. One day I opened her drawers looking for these beautiful scarfs I always played with to dress up in. I do not know what they were really used for but I thought they were perfect for drapping around me to make pretty dresses. Then I could not find them I looked. Then i saw this plastic bag with a needle and some other items wrapped in hr clothes. I cried so hard because I knew what they were. I had taken D.A.R.E classes in school that showed graphic pictures. I was so hurt. I have never shared this with anyone. Then on top of that my mother left me for a weeks when I was a kid to pay bills and cook for myself. our relatinship has been torn every since.
My senior year in high school i was on honor roll every quarter, in honor classes, and a member of seven extra curricular committies. I was one of the shinning stars of my class. Not to mention I was nominated Rotarian of the month. My mom kicked me out and put me on the streets on a Wednesday during the school year. All I cared about was getting to class the next day. This is just a breeze over my life experiences. The key to overcoming these difficult situations was my attitude. i never gave up but my attitude was my boost to keep on going. I want to encourage all the students out there in sitations better or worse to always remember there is a up. never focus on the negative because it will lead to more negative.
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Yes, that is the real secret on how to live your life happily. If you cannot change the world, you can certainly change the way you look at the world. So, what happened after your mother kicked you out? >_< I hope I'm not being nosy. lol I'd really love to hear your experience as another human being. And you're a mother now? Wow, look how far you've come.
After my mom kicked me out I was forced to catch three buses to get to school. I caught 94 to the 6 to the 41c until I graduated. Sometimes I was I got lucky and my sister would take me before she went to work. One time I got up really really early one morning to go to school in the middle of a blizzard. I should of known school were going to be closed but I was determined to go anyway. I was at school at 6am and the time had gone back that morning I was so pissed. I had to call someone to get me before my tears froze to my face but I did it. Yeah i am a mom now my mom still makes it really tough on me. Thats why I guess I cant sleep at night working my but off so I can make my life better. I don't mind you asking me questions I like to know that you are interested in what I am writing about.
Tiffany Southall signing out by keeping you up-to-date.