Now I'm sure all the females will be able to relate to my following rant in some way or another.....
Sometimes I have trouble feeling comfortable in my own skin. I question my own sex appeal. No matter how hard I try to resist I think I've been brainwashed by the media too. I think I've been infected. But not in the way you may think, there's a new epidemic. My culture (and I think most others as well) does not covet the hungry model on the magazine cover. My culture is overrun my "healthy" models whose bras runneth over and have behinds that measure double the size of their waist. Maybe you've seen it on the news stands?
Well I don't fit either category, does that make me less of a woman?? I am not tall and thin with that cute little hourglass figure that floats down the runway. Although I am quite thin.....I don't qualify for hourglass or tall. And I'm certainly not of the other category.
But no two women are the same and its our differences that make us beautiful. But even though I know that, and there are a growing number of women who make sure they tell their dauhters the same we still have an alarmingly high number of girls who stuff their bras, or on a more serious note, has eating disorders and dangerously low self esteem.
Even I have to convince myself that it's ok not to look like our run-of-the-mill magazine cover. Who makes the rules? What is sexy? Ladies, tell me what you love about yourself....I'm still deciding.
I close with a poem on image I wrote a little while ago. It reaks of the confidence I lost somehow, but most women know, we have our good days and our bad, that was a good day..........let me know what you think please.
It seems to me I live in a world obsessed w/ image.
Women scream & beg to be heard.
“We’re not all a size 6!”
“Big is beautiful.”
Apparently the media feeds us some man-made fantasy of stick thin, pre-pubescent women.
But I’m stuck in a different world.
One with King Magazine & Eye Candy of the Month.
My size 1 - sometimes 3 frame isn’t sexy enough.
Making girls like me pray I’m not done growing.
35-27-38.
Not curvy enough.
I live in a world where fat a$$es,
And “booties & boobs like the capital letter B” are coveted.
As quoted from Murphy Lee.
Not sexy enough.
Not enough curves.
Inadequate.
But you see - thankfully - I’ve grown to realize my beauty is not my hips, a$$, or thighs.
It’s my eyes…..it’s my mind.
I am size 1 perfection.
& still not tall enough to meet standards in that other world either.
So I live in my own little world
Where I ca grace the cover of any maazine.
No outside validation.
Just me.
Telling my reflection
“You’re beautiful you sexy thing you!”
And for all the prn stars who make it hard to be me:
I’M SEXY TOO.
If you notice any spelling or rammatical errors I missed just let me know. THANKS!
