well, this past monday morning at midnight, exactly two years, a month, and nine days to the midnight (not done on purpose, just how it played out), my girlfriend left me. we had been friends, then best friends, then lovers. but then the spark had faded and although i tried to reignite it several times over, it became increasingly futile as it became apparent that she wasn't interested in having it reignited. and that hurt. it hurt a lot. it hurt when i first realized it. it still hurts. it will hurt tomorrow. it'll hurt ten years from now. she said she's young, life's still fresh, so she wants to try it out a bit more before settling down to make a decision. she wants to find out who she is. and i guess i can understand that. can't date someone who doesn't even know who they are, right? i wish her the best of luck and that she finds what she's looking for, or maybe that she left everything she really wanted and wants to come back. i don't know, i'm now putting it in god's hands. he'll protect her, and if it's his will for me to have her back, hopefully he works that out and the sooner the better. but if not, i wish her luck on her quest. i hope she doesn't get hurt or taken advantage of; she has been several times before. and i also hope she doesn't do this again to someone else. but most importantly, i hope she finds what she wants and what she's looking for. i always tried to make her happy and make her feel secure the best i know how. but if it wasn't all that she needed, i hope she finds what she needs. first and foremost, i want her to be happy. and if she'll be happier apart from me, then i'm willing to accept that. as it's said, "if you love something, let it go. if it was meant to be yours, it will come back to you." she's freed herself now. i never thought she was being kept against her will or anything, but now she's free. i wish her luck, and that god will go with her. take god with you, alyse. you won't regret it. good bye.
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I am very sorry. If it is meant to be she will come back, sooner or later. But I wish you luck most importantly. You will have a hard time getting over this and it will take a long time. GOOD LUCK!
Wow, two years something is very long. It's like you guys got married or something. It must be hard for her to break up with you too I'm sure. Well, I hope you will feel better. At least you guys are still friends, no? It will still be hard to be just friends with someone who used to be called your lover.
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I feel sorry for you,
Please know from what I read you are actually a great guy!
You shouldn’t worry to much of this misfortune that you are living now. One fine day she will be nothing more than a fine memory that will bring a silly smile upon your face.
We all go trough this process in live and it might happen again in future relationships.
There is one thing one can not control in a relationship… It is nothing more than attraction.
If she has lost attraction towards you, it does not mean there is anything wrong with you.
So you need to focus your thoughts in order to get that nail out of your head and continue your live in order to involve yourself in new love affairs that will bring you even more joy than you might have experienced until now.
The biggest problem for boys is the sexual addiction that needs to be eradicated out of your thoughts. The thought of your ex being with someone else might give you pain but it shouldn’t be the case if you learn to control your emotional state.
The reason why you miss your ex is because you are addicted to her. If you get to straight this out the pain will go away.
So, love yourself more, and new love will show itself at your doorstep!
Good luck,