Dec. 28, 1996 12:17 am
I do realize one of my problems is I have incredible amounts of self doubt, but it is sort of funny. I know I can accomplish anything I desire, but when the time presents itself I seem not to succeed. Another thing I also realize was my relationships scene is a Catch 22. I seem to be interested in women who are involved with someone, but I can’t date them because they are in involved with someone. Why are all the people who see me for who I truly already taken?
Life sure can be a lot of trouble. Sometimes it gets really hard to continual and all you want to do is be in the arms of someone special even jut for a little time. In my opinion Linus had it wrong. The blanket should have held him not him holding the blanket.
All the motivational speakers say you should have positive thoughts and draw your power from them, but I am not like that. I draw my power from my friends and when I am alone it drains me. Now a days there are few people I want to be with and that does not work out.
Will I ever figure it all out?
T
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In the area of the country that I live in most people do not shack hands with each other, we like to hug. Whether you hug, shack hands, give knuckles, or what ever, it is not he gesture that is important. It is the power we exchange. Every little essence, life force, karma, etc... gets passed between people. It says; “I am there for you. Let me take some of your joy, sadness, fear; (insert any emotion here). Mans greatest ability in my opinion is empathy, or sharing our feelings. Just watch any movie with a happy or sad ending and try and feel something different.
When people are alone they lose the support that come form others. At the time one friend that I could open up to was not there. Through no fault of his own, I struggled with my pain by myself. Happy to say, I survived. It is because of this that I will always be there for my friend with an open hear and open heart. I don’t want my friend or my family to go through what I did. If I am empathetic, I have felt that way once I don’t need to feel it again. This is why Linus carried his blanket always. He just needed a good hug.
I liked the way you wrote this blog. Being alone does suck, but sometimes it is part of life. I am alone most of the time. I have no friends, my family lives states away and doesn't want anything to do with me. My dad is absorbed into the computer, and my boyfriend is absorbed into his games. My mom is gone...and won't be coming back unless I could raise the dead.lol. I am glad you have friends to talk to who will be a good friend to you. I struggle with my pain by myself everyday and it really is not fun. It is nice to have people to care for you and i enjoyed your comparison about linus in the blanket!
I am here to inform and help:
http://www.progressiveu.org/032913-lupus-uncureable-wait-what
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True being alone does suck, but sometimes it is better to be in a crowed just so you can hear the background noise. If your boyfriend is not careful then you will be gone and all he will have left is his games. As for you father you may only be able to talk to him is online even if you are in the same room. Still, you are talking. Right now I am still single but not to blue about it. I have goals to keep me going for the next two years and if a relationship pops up during that time, all the merrier.
Don't go looking for it will come to you when you least expect it. My boyfriend and I spend time together because he lives with my dad and me.lol I know that sounds werid. He just works long hours 12-15 a night sometimes. He will spend time with me but it is hard and strange with my dad around, so that is a reason also. My dad is just trying to keep his mind off of my mom. We watched her pass in the hospital in 2006 and it has been hard. As for friends for me...they come few and far. Don't sweat it focus on yourself first. If you ever need anyone to talk to I'll be there.
I am here to inform and help:
http://www.progressiveu.org/032913-lupus-uncureable-wait-what
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I am doing OK for now. I got two dogs that keep me company, the conversation seems to be a little one sided. Other then that between work and school starting soon, I won't have time to feel down. Keep reading mine and I will keep reading yours.