As I looked down into my mother's blank eyes, I realized just how terrifying it was to know the person who gave you life was dying in front of you. It haunts me to this day, knowing I almost lost the one person who will love me no matter what happens in this world.
I was upstairs about to take a shower when I heard my mother call to my sister. It was nothing out of the ordinary, I figured she wanted the laundry to be done. And then I heard this sickening, blood-curdling scream rage from my fifteen-year-old little sister. I flew down the stairs clad only in my towel, and found my sister in hysterics and my mother sprawled on the carpet. She has a bad back, so I knew something was wrong when I saw her down. I heard a noise that sounded like snoring, and realized it was my unconscious mother's body trying to breathe. Her eyes were blank and mouth hung open.
By this time my father had run in from the garden outside, and he shouted to my mother as my sister screamed, cried, and banged her hands on the living room floor. It was all happening so fast, and it was so scary to know my mother was dying in front of her family.
And then she stopped breathing completely. Her face and lips turned blue, and my father sobbed on her chest. The world sort of stopped turning for a moment as I looked from my manic little sister to my devastated father....to my broken mother. My mommy. It was then I realized CPR must be performed if we didn't want to lose my mom before the paramedics came. I placed my hands over my mother's hard, swollen belly full of trapped air, and pushed down on the spot between her breasts. My father frantically breathed into her mouth, and we took turns, praying to God her lifeless body would respond.
During this terrifying scene, my mind wandered to all the little and big things I was scared of. I was scared she would never see my little sister graduate high school, or see me accepted into my dream college. I was scared she would never see my sister drive a car, badly, or see me walk down the aisle with my arm in my father's. But most of all, I was scared for me. I was scared to not have my mommy.
And I was angry, too. She was diagnosed when she was 38 and I was 13. Since then, I have not been able to shop with my mother at the mall, or go on amusement park rides, or walk through the city. I've endured countless hospital stays, and seen my mother near death countless times. Once from an infection that gave her a fever of 105 for several days. Once from kidney kidney failure due to a mix-up at a local pharmacy. Once from congestive heart failure. Once from a surgery to insert a pacemaker. Once from having a 24-hour intervenus sewn into her heart.
I'm angry, but I don't know who or what I am angry with. I am angry that my mother can't have a life most people consider normal. She can't sit in a movie theatre and eat popcorn and she can't walk up the street to grab an ice cream cone. She can barely make dinner anymore. Sure, I am upset that I lost out on a lot of great experiences I could have had with my mother, but I am mostly upset over the experiences my mother lost. It makes me so sad to see her have to be wheeled around in a wheelchair, at the age of 47. Nad I know she is sad too. That's what makes it hurt even more. The fact that she tries to cover up her unhappiness.
I know one of these days it is really going to happen, and I can't prepare myself. When I was a teenager, my mother would talk about the future after she dies and try to prepare us. But you can't prepare someone for death. You just can't. I don't know what will happen when my mommy leaves me. I think about it all the time, and I try not to let it consume me. At least I have my best friend here now. I am grateful she is alive. I remember when she died that day on our living room floor and I just begged God to let her breathe one more breath. It was the most glorious feeling when she finally did breathe again.
I just wish I could tell her that.
I feel so old.
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That was touching. My mother has not past but my aunt who looks like my mother and had alot of the same qualities as my mother did about 4 years ago. And I can relate to some of the things that you said, you want that person to be around for years and years but with the many things that were going on they had to let go. The time that I spent with my aunt while she was ill were days of sorrow and pain knowing that you were not going to see this person in a physical sense anymore. I would hold her hand, clean her face from dried up tears then excuse myself from the room to re-gain control of my emotions, you could not understand nothing she would say to you the cancer went to her brain. The day that I left to go back home I kissed her on her forehead and whispered in her ear "I love you auntie", and she said so plain and clear I love you to and I broke down in tears. A day or two later I got the call in the night that she had past it was like haveing my world fall all around me. Be strong and don't worry about wanting to tell her because the Lord knows your heart and he has already told her. Be Blessed.
MRS. SMITH
Yes, this really is touching. I feel for you. My mom isn't dying, but she's not here nonetheless. It's impossible to describe.
There are other people who can understand or are close to understanding. Some folks are just so oblivious to everyone else around them, they would never take the time to REALLY ask how someone is doing. It's just a polite courtesy nowadays.
I have had a friend in high school who's twenty year old sister died and the thing is with that is how DO you show someone you care? If you're not a close friend of that person, it's awkward not because of MY feelings, but because I don't want to say the wrong thing. Grief that powerful is hard to understand, and the last thing I would ever want to do is conjure up emotions to painful to deal with at the moment. Any pointers on how to comfort someone with such grief would be welcome.
Yeah, I need pointers too. Its hard to decide what to do. My sister's friend's sister died, and the friend was grieving. My sister didn't know what to do, she didn't want to bother her and call and say I'm sorry about what happened. Then there would be an akward silence. Besides, the friend didn't pick up. Now what happens is that people avoid her because you don't want to sound like you don't care about what happened, but you also don't want to bring up any pain.
I think it's comforting for someone to say they will pray for me or I'm in their thoughts, and just give me a goood looong hug. A hug is so simple, but it can really say all the words you need to hear in bad situations.
I am not the hugging kind, The most comforting thing for me had been silence or at most a hond on the shoulder and a simple yeah. My freinds new to wait for me to talk. Everyone is diffrent.
Keep praying, Keep Believing
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this was truly touching. im sorry to hear about her death.
Actually, thank God, she isn't dead right now...she's alive. Her heart stopped and she had no pulse, so they said she died on the floor and we resuscitated her.
But thank you for your concern :-)
I lost my mom a year ago and I feel your pain My mom faught for 13 long months and for the most of those months I never left her side and it was one of the hardest things a mother and daughter can go through - so I do know your pain. But, I will preach to anyone listening if you don't have a relationship with your mom you better get it while you can because some day she won't be able to tell you it's all ok or that none of it matters anymore!!!!! Don't let those I'm sorry's and the little things or the big blow ups go unforgiven because when it's to late it's to late. My mom's sister waited to late and the guilt is eating at her still to this day - because she waited to late. I tell her it's ok. Mom knows now. But, anyway, you stay close to your mom. And, For anyone reading this, It is ok to let them go, but only God knows when it's their time. My mom, Rest Her Soul, had 4 YES 4 craniotomies (brain surgeries) The last 2 messed her brain up - that brain is your most sensitive organ and hers was mad very very mad and went into (excuse my language) Pissed off shock and never fully recovered they never could get to all of the cancer but, she tried not matter what. to stay on this earth. She was 52 had 3 daughters, 5 grandchildrens was married to the same man for 35 years and passed away on their 35th anniversary. That day was what Mother wanted, we knew she was waiting for "HER DAY" That was momma's day. Not many people can say these days they married their high school sweetheart july 2, 1971 and stayed that way for better or worse thru thick and thin until her final day July 2, 2006 35 years
Thankyou for this time and understanding. I needed to say thins for someone. I don't know who. But, someone needs this message I am sending.
I love you momma!!!!!!!!!!!
Wow sweet heart.....
I first commend you, for having to guts to share this personal and yet scary feeling with us all. I am also, grateful to God because, in that living room, In the midst of you despare you were able to call on him for help. and he did. Praise God for that.
I understand that you are angry, but im here to tell you you shouldn't be, even though it seems as if your mother isnt allowed to do anything. At least she can still witness another glorious day, she can still breathe, she still has her sight and she still gets to spend one more second with her wonderful daughter who cares so much about her.
God has been good to you and your family and I pray that you continue to hold on, continue to embrace every moment with her, continue to share you love with her.
And if she doesnt wake up the next day you can breathe and say that you will see her again someday.
Your mother knows how much you love her, some people part on bad terms and feel guilty for the rest of their lives, and since your mother is blessed time and time again to fight that fight you get to help her.
Dont be angry love, dont be sad, its hard to see the one you love the most going through so much, but im sure it makes your mother feel good to be surrounded with so much love.
God bless you, I will pray for you and yours
You know, it is such a good feeling when you know people are praying for you. And it seems to feel even better when a stranger prays for you. They don't personally know you, but they ask God for His help anyways. It makes me feel safe, and loved. Thank you so much. My mother is stable at the moment, but I will take all the prayers, good energy, and loving thoughts I can get.
:-)
Is your mother religious? Are you guys at peace about where she will go if she dies?
i am so sorry. i'll keep you in my prayers.
This made me cry. When my dad had the first of a series of heart attacks all I wanted to do was cry. I had lost so many people I had cared about already and I didn't want to lose my father too. Shortly after my dad came out of the hospital my mom went in for gull stone removal, she wound up with pnuemonia and got really sick. I had almost lost my dad and now I was about to lose my mom, fortuantly she got through it. Since that day I worry that they won't make it to see me walk across that stage and get my diploma or my sister to graduate college, now it seems so close because this year I graduate, my dad will retire and the year after my sister will graduate but yet it seems like it will never happen. My parents are getting older my mom is 51 and soon before September is over my dad will be 61 and I have no idea if in 4 years they will get to see my sister put up her house and marry the man she is engaged to today. Last year one of my good friends lost his dad. Thank you for writing this, it is well written and descibes emotions which are usually too hard to even think about none the less put together in sentances and write or in this case type:).
I'm glad you posted this. I'm feeling a lot more grateful now for my family's health.
I hope that you can be able to talk to your mother. Maybe you could encourage her to open up to you - just let her know that you're there for her if she needs to talk about what she's going through.
I am not sure which is worse, watching a beloved parent waste away and die, or to have it happen out of the clear blue. Either way it takes guts to write about it in an open forum like this and to do it with such- Grace. There is nothing anyone can say or will say to make you feel any diffrent. I am glad you love her and have her to tell.
all truths are easy to understand once discovered; the point is to discover them ~galileo
I agree. There is nothing we can say. I thing the most horrible death is from Alzheimer's. When people suffer physically, yes that is horrible. But when their mind is gone and every cherished memory on earth is wiped out, the precious memories that make life worth living, that is brutal. IT's like they never lived. Whats the point of living if there are no memories right? Life is all about making the moment count. And for the family to watch the kind of death and lose their mother through her mind, thats like losing her heart and soul. I hope they find a cure...fast.
this is a truly powerful story...one that really connects with people of all ages, walks of life, and backgrounds. it's amazing how people can pull together when difficult things happen. i don't even know you and i am proud of you. you are blessed to have such an amazing mother, and she is blessed to have an amazing daughter like you. my prayers are with you and your family...
Your writing is amazing... and my story made you cry? I hope you find the courage to tell your mother this soon, it would change her life.
"Be the change you wish to see in the world..." - Ghandi
Thank you. Your story just hit so close to home. My mother's collapse happened May of '06, so it's still fresh in memory....probably will be forever. I haven't really been able to deal with it too much, so when something reminds me of it, I get teary eyed.
I left a lot out of the story. When we were doing CPR, I held her face in my hands and begged her to open her eyes, and told her I loved her. When she started breathing, her eyes were all over the place and unfocused. She began babbling incoherently as if she were mentally incompetent. THAT was scary too, because for a few minutes I thought she would have brain damage for the rest of her life...but she was lucky. She came back fully and said she felt like she was dreaming and there were shadowy people all over the place. When she heard my voice calling her back and saying 'I love you', the people drifted further and further away and all she could see was my face.
The hospital and doctors said our family should see some sort of counselor for the traumatic experience, but I can't afford it unfortunately. So this is where I will let it all out, and so far it feels good to have people listen.
When you hear a word come from your love one that is passing it means so much to you. When I heard my auntie tell me that she loved me too, that was like music to my ears like a sound that I have never heard before. And until this day I wish that I could hear her sweet beautiful voice. When she past I use to have dreams about her all the time, like one time I had a dream that my phone rung and when I answered it she was on the other end.
I sat down at the dinning room table and held a conversation with her as if she was at her home, she asked about my mom and the rest of the family and I told her that I missed her. And every night the dreams would come back to back until this one night I dreamed that we were all at her house and all the family was there (just like they were when she was dieing). Auntie was sitting in the front room with her legs crossed and we we talking like we all was do, then all of a suddend everyone is running from the back of the house and we saw smoke.
I cried and cried asking my auntie to get up and lets go cause the house was on fire and she looked at me with tears in her eyes and told me to go. I told her that I was not leaving the house with out her so then we all finally got her out. She sat in a chair that was in the yard and gently touched my face and told me that her body was tired and she's alright and that I needed to let her go and I cried like a baby. I wrapped my arms around her and cried like I never have before and when I woke up my face was covered with tears and after that I have not had any more dreams.
I guess that last dream was her tell me that I had to let her go and that she was alright, I just wanted to share that with you all. As you can see I love my auntie with all my heart and I wish that I could get one more day with her that is all.
MRS. SMITH
Wow. That is so special to feel close to your aunt at least in your dreams. I believe it WAS her, giving you those dreams. That made my hair stand up!
That is so crazy! It made the hairs on the back of my neck crawl because I believe that it was her auntie as well. My wife's grandma passed away a couple of years ago and she was closer to her than most anyone except for me. She kept having dreams of their family surrounding her grandma, talking to her but they all knew that she was dead. She told them that she was alright and that she visited everyone often. I won't share her dream, because it is not mine to share, but she had a similar dream to that one described above and I have always believed that it was her grandma speaking to her as well.
that brought tears to my eyes...my mother's in pretty good health, but she's so important to me that i constantly worry that someday, when i'm not home (especially since i am away at school), something will happen, or one day a routine doctor's visit will turn up something unexpected....i don't know what i would do, and i've never even come as close as you have to losing her.
i guess the best you can do is cherish every moment, and never forget how much you love each other. love will keep you strong, through the best and worst of times.
--stacie
You are right. About loving each other through the best and the worst. Love so as to have no regrets. I have heard so many stories of people who went off to college and forgot about their parents. They were mad, or just wanted to get away. And then when their parent died suddenly, people are left with regret. Like "If only I did this", "if only I treated her better". And regret is horrible. It will eat away at you and make you bitter. Never forget your parents. Love them today and everyday. Never let a day go by without hugging them and telling them you love them. They may not show it, but they desperately want to hear that. Some parents are waiting for their teens to "Grow out" of rebellion or other things. These parents are fighting a lot with their kids and don't hear I love you for years. Then one day, something happens and thats it. Time is up. What did you do with your time? Never let the sun set on your anger. In the end, tell them how much you appreciate everything they did for you.No regrets.
I hope everything with your mom is ok. just make the best of what you have.
I can't imagine (nor would I want to try to imagine) experiencing all of that. I'm so sorry that you and your mom and the rest of your family have to go through this. My mom has some health problems also. Ever since i was a little girl i have worried more about her than anything else in my life. When i was younger i would pray EVERY night that she would be okay. It breaks my heart to think about what she goes through, and it kills me to think about what would happen if i lost her. She's the only person in this world i'm close to nomatter what and she means more to me than anything on this earth (aside from my dad). It really brings me to tears just thinking about it.
I think you are alot stronger than I am. And may the Lord give you and your family the strength and peace you all need. And nomatter what..you and your mom both know that you love each other. You will ALWAYS have that.
You are a very brave person and I applaud you for that. Always remember that everything happens for a reason and never forget that God is always there for you!
its true, the whole fear of having someone you love tell you to prepare for when they are no their. i mean, we think of life constantly. we rarely stop to think about how it would be when our parents die. life may not be bought but we assume it is and prtend our parents will always be there. no matter what. its so sad to hear about a mother dying, the one who gave birth to you. they may die physically, but they will never die from our hearts.
True, I think we choose to ignore the fact that they will die too and because their deaths are so far away, we don't prepare ourselves for it and pretend that they will always be around. Maybe thats why it hits us so hard.
it is a heartbreaking experience... i watched my grandmother, the woman who practicly raised me, just pass away due to heart failure. It is very psychological at the moment it happens. YOu get nervous, you don''t know what to think.. if your supposed to be mad or sad.... If you should cry of break something. It is really terrible to witness a close one die and i would never wish it on my worst enemy.
---Mike Schilling---
There are typically 5 stages of grief. These reactions do not occur in a specific order, and may (at times) show simultaneously. Not all of these emotions are necessarily experienced:
• Denial, disbelief, numbness
• Anger, blaming others
• Bargaining (e.g., "If I am cured of this cancer, I will never smoke again.")
• Depressed mood, sadness, and crying
• Acceptance, coming to terms
Individuals who are grieving will frequently report crying spells, some trouble sleeping, and difficulty being productive at work.
http://adam.about.com/encyclopedia/infectiousdiseases/Grief.htm
all truths are easy to understand once discovered; the point is to discover them ~galileo
Is this supposed to be helping her? Her mother is still alive you know, so take it easy with the grief stages.
Let me get this straight , greif only happens after a person dies and you did not see the link that took a clicker to a site about how to develope coping strategies for while they are still living. Oh and that was a reply not to the blogger but to a poster that metioned some of the stages. It was just information because sometimes that can be empowering...knowing them helped me past my father's sudden death because it was the one thing that made sense....I satated earlier that nothing anyone can say or do will actually help...half the time it makes it worse.
Good post to defend what friends we make here in cyber space. That shows a Godly character.
~Calmly
all truths are easy to understand once discovered; the point is to discover them ~galileo
That what makes us human is what kills us. Our emotions, our ties, every fear we hold dear. I feel sad for you, and I can't imagine what it is like. But God will keep you strong. Keep praying.
Oh, and you are a very well written person. Bravo.
And this same progeny of evils comes from our debate, from our dissension; We are their parents and original. -- A Midsummer Night's Dream Act II, Scene I, Lines 115-117
Very endearing story.
I lost my grandmother 3 1/2 years ago to cancer.
For now, try to spend less time worrying about your mother's condition and more time living in the present and making the best out of the time you do have with her.
I may not have had my mother die, but i have witnessed deaths and had alot of family members die. I am so sorry for your loss, and you are a braver person that I am to be able to contginue life and write about it. Your mom would be proud of you.
I really appreciate the nice thoughts. But I should probabaly clear up the fact that my mother is still ALIVE. Her heart stopped and she had no pulse, so the doctors said she died on the floor and was rescucitated.
She's still alive!!!
Sheesh you guys. What did I tell you?!! SHe is alive, so stop with the stages of death, you know who. Is your mother better for good, or is she still under watch in case anything happens?
Well, my mother wil; never be fully better. When she was diagnosed 9 years ago, they told her she had 2-5 years to live. She has a rare heart/lung disease called Primary Pulmonary Hypertension. It is incurable, so she will have the symptoms until she dies. She used to have a 24-hour intervenus sewn into her heart and we made medicine for her every day. She couldn't swim or be in the water for too long for years. Then they developed an experimental nebulizer type of machine to use every two hours for 15 mins. It was a big step and she took the line out of her chest, but it was huge and had to be plugged in somewhere every two hours no matter where she was.
Now, they have a handheld system for her that runs on batteries. It has been working, but her condition goes up and down all the time. When she collapsed in May her heart stopped and she was in the hospital for a month. Finally, she had a pacemaker put in and she is doing better.
It's hard because she gets a lot sicker than regular healthy people. If she has a cold she can't walk for a week or two. She had an infection in April, and I stayed awake over 48-hours at once to be with her in the hospital. She had a fever of 105 and almost died yet again, but managed to pull through. It still amazes me how she keeps pulling through all of this, and it inspires me to encourage her. She is only 47.
I know she will die, but I'd like to think we can all keep her around longer. I told her she WILL be alive to see her first grandchild....I'll raise her from the dead AGAIN if I have to hahaha.
P.S. Thanks for realizing that she's still alive. I kept reading comments talking like she had really died, and it scared the living crap out of me.
Times flies like the wind; fruit flies like a banana.
Wow. Your mom is a fighter. It must have been terrible when they told you she had only 2-5 years to live. I couldn't imagine thinking about it, counting down the years every new years eve, praying she would still be alive by the 5th year. But, since you know that your mom will die one day, as we all will, have you ever thought that maybe she wants to go? Have you really talked to her about what she wants? Just a thought. Maybe she is going through so much pain that she can't deal with it, its hard to live like that and I am sure many people want to just be let go. I have a feeling that she can't let go because she knows that you depend on her. She doesn't want to let you down. Talk to her about it. Your mom is giving her all to stay alive, just for you.
She is staying alive for my sister and me, but she is also staying alive for herself. I know she doesn't want to go because she lost one of her friends to the same disease. They met in a support group and hit it off. They went to conventions, doctor appointments and encouraged each other through every day. Judy was in and out of the hospitals and my mother pushed her to fight and overcome the disease. She had lost three children to the disease before they reached the age of two, and had two surviving children. When you're both in a shitty position, you give the advice you yourself want to hear. Then Judy died the day before her 34th birthday.
I know she gets tired and just feels shitty some days, but I do push her on. I do not think it is just for me, but if it is then I can deal with that. Maybe it sounds selfish, but if it helps me keep my sanity without causing her too much pain, then I want it. I am not at the point where I can accept the fact that she won't be there to kiss me goodnight. It sounds very easy, and a lot of people suggest opening up and letting someone go.....but it's only that easy in Lifetime movies girls. I'm selfish and I don't want my mother to die. I want her to fight and keep inspiring me. I want her for a just a little longer to tell me I don't look fat in that skirt and to tell me how proud she is that I've done so much.
I really wish I could go ahead and tell her, "Do what you want, give up", but I can't. We are survivors. I've survived a lot in my 21 years of life unfortunately and a lot was because of her. Now, I am going to return the favor and not let her give up or give in.
this was great and reminds us that we should cherise each day like it could be our last.
if it seemed like that's what I was saying. I can't say the same for the others. But in general, I think most are just saying "wow, what would I do if my mom was lying on the floor dead and I was there, and then she came back to us?" It's a shock, something that slams you to the ground. It's a second chance, and none of us know what that is like really. I shouldn't say none, but still.
I am glad she is alive. But still, hold strong.
-J-
Dream lofty dreams, and as you dream, so you shall become. Your vision is the promise of what you shall one day be; your ideal is the prophecy of what you shall at last unveil. - James Allen
wow. that must have been a horrible experience for you. i can't even fathom the feelings you must have. you and your family will be in my prayers.
That one actually brought me close to crying. I hope you will have your mother in your life until you feel you are ready to cope with her departure. I worry about my mom sometimes, too, now that I am at college and don't see her every day. My mother has only one kidney, sickle-cell anemia, and low blood cell count, yet she keeps pushing on. Thank God, she can still walk around and work as a nurse. I know it must be hard to see your mom not able to walk around the house, or drive, or other stuff. I'll pray for your mom's health and that you are able to speak to her/ say last words to her before she goes.
This is one of the most endearing blogs I have ever read. God bless you for posting something that pulls on the strings of all our hearts. Your story made me cry because it was like a foreshadowing into my future. My mom is a smoker and no matter what I say to try and get her to quit, she smokes on. I beleive that she will get sick sometime within the next decade (you would agree with me if you heard her 'coughing laugh' ha ha hugh hugh hugh huuuuuuuuuuugh...and then she starts to turn blue in the face). I have often thought of what it is going to be like watching her go downhill. I don't look forward to it. I will pray for you as well.
for sharing what you did with everyone. My dad passed away of cancer five years ago, this September and I don't think I could be as open as you were. I still can't even say 'my dad died of...' I used words synonomous with 'dead' b/c it sounds 'less harsh. ' You'll hear me say, ' my dad passed of cancer,' rather than 'died' like that makes him any less dead...
anyways.. thank you again for sharing what you did.
JM
what a beautiful, yet sad description of that day. i'm so sorry you lost her. i lost my mom in a way different from death...she's just not there...difficult situation.
HELLOOOO! She is NOT DEAD! She is alive, you guys. Please read more carefully, this is getting a little freaky when everyone talks about her death and she is still alive.
friends, strangers, and grandmother...but when my mother dealt with cancer I was reduced to the worst feelings in my life...I hope that you have MANY more years together!
Man, reading this makes me miss my mom. After all these times I've been fighting with over house chores. It was very beautiful. Thank you for sharing this.
http://www.progressiveu.org/090204-dont-miss-this-chance
yeah, reading this made me appreciate all the good times I have with my mom and forget about the little petty things that we so often argue about. they say, you don't know what health is until you lose it. I had better start appreciating now.
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I'm impressed that you were able to respond and start CPR so soon. The shock of seeing your mom on the floor must have been horrifying. Stay strong.
Yeah, it was pretty scary but at the moment all I really felt was desperation. I think that's why we were able to do CPR. I didn't really respond as emotionally as I wanted to until after it all ended. I didn't cry until my father and sister left behind the ambulance on the way to the hospital. Then, I remember just breaking down and sobbing like a baby in my room.
http://www.progressiveu.org/090204-dont-miss-this-chance
yeah, about CPR. Is it hard? do you just close their nose and breath into them or do you have to breath out for them too, or what?
I don't know if I could react that fast under pressure in a life and death situation. I guess we never know until something happens.
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Just tell her. And don't forget to add that you love her.
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