Man it has been a hell of a year... I started off this year pretty well until I saw all of the headaches that I have to face this month. I am on a constant fight with my boyfriend and during the holiday season we almost called it quits...
Then in october of last month I decided not to have car insurance because I was having money difficulties and needed to make a sacrifice so I can have the extra money for food and such. Well that month a raging lady hit me while I was entering into a parking spot which I had my blinker pointing at... She was in such a hurry that I guess she thought that she could just swing in at the last moment and hit the side of my front bumper. Now this month I have to go to court for my sentencing because I had no insurance at the time. Even though I am paying two hundred dollars a month now for it and fews days after I had the wreck, they still want me to be sentenced... I can do jail time or owe a maximum of five hundred dollars. This is my first real offense so I am hoping that the judge will take it easy on me.
This month my daughter also started day care and she will not stop crying. She is acting as if I am punishing her and I am trying to show her that she is there to play and learn and make new friends. Its going to take her a while to get used to I know but for the time being it is just really hard on me. I have been having a lot of anxiety because of all of this crap that is happening... I just want to break down and this is where it is happening.. right here on this blog!
Trying to keep up with my bills this month has been outrageous! I don't even have cable and I have to pay PNM ( which is our electric company) almost a hundred dollars this month because my apartment will not stay heated. My daughter hates to be cold and she is sick and I don't want to make it worse for her.
My old tv has died on me and so now we have this little 14 inch tv to stare at and the reception is crappy because I use rabbit ears to have some sort of channel. I still have my dang phone bill to pay which has gotten to the point where when my contract comes around I may not have a phone any more. If I do that then my case workers will be upset because it is going to be to hard for them to get a hold of me.
I just got new internet services because I need to have a computer for school and the bill came out to a hundred dollars! I don't have a single dime left over with all of these bills!!! I do work and my job pays me a little more then minimum wage but my case worker asked me to get this job because it is a work study position for school.
I owe 1202 dollars this month and I have no clue where any of that money is going to come from because my checks are barely over a hundred dollars... I have about had it with everything and not having any support! Not even from my boyfriend has been really hard!!!!!! I have helped him through financial trouble before and even still he gets that help when I can lend it and when I am at my very end he does nothing!!!! I am done
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