Sorry I took you for granted

I'm sorry.

I just wanted to start off by saying I'm sorry and really mean it!

I know you heard this over and over again. I know you are thinking: "why should I believe her this now?"

I don't blame you. If I was in you, I would never come around again. I would never give myself to me any more. Most of all, I wouldn't give me a second chance.

But you are better than that.

You are graceful and kind. You are always on point when I need you the most with out me seeking you out. You know when to stay for a while or just pass through for a little while. As long as I know you are on my side, I know everything will be alright.

I know I take you for granted like you will always be around. I act as if you owe me something. As if I'm your only friend, as if you only belong to me. It's not that I'm trying to be selfish. It's just that I always want you around.

I wish I could have more of you. I just wish there were more hours in the day so I can keep you with me.

I get jealous when I think you are nicer to someone else.

So I curse you, abuse you, and pretend that I don't know who you are. But you know I can never forget you.

You haven't always been so nice either. When you get fed up you show me. You can be harsh and make my days long. If I ask for more of you it can be like you can't hear me. But I understand your ways.

You have matured me, made me hopeful and gave me many chances. You have made the woman that I am today. You have help me to heal when no one or nothing else could. You help me take my past experiences to guide me.

Most importantly, you gave me my son. You help me raise him, and when I think I can't handle things you give me the courage to go on.

Just let me say thank you. And I promise from this day on I'm going to let you know everyday how much I cherish you. I won't take you for granted any more.

I know you know who you are. You have a way of knowing these things. But just in case.

Thank you (TIME) for being my best friend and worse enemy.