Art [what it does for me]

Sometimes i just need someone to talk to, but dont feel like ranting... so, basically...i dont need anyone to talk to...sound weird? ya it is. lol.. I just need it to all come out somehow.

Right now I'm really trying to do most of my venting through art...and its actually helping a lot, and it gives me something to do..but when the spray paint can is empty...its hard to find something else...but necessity is the mother of invention. Maybe ill find something else to make... something else to put an image to my emotion...just to get it out of me, and onto some physical form. Its funny because since I read this quote from Louise Bourgeois that said;

"Art is the promise the artist makes to the community, that they will not commit murder."

I think that basically inspired me to start channeling my anger, and sad emotions (that im kinda of having alot of right now), and my good, happy, and excited emotions, into something i can see, touch, and feel. It, in a weird way, identifiys the emotion for me. it mirrors it back, so i can understand and deal with it. Not that im going to go out and murder someone! But, i understand what she means when she says that... its pretty weird. I think artists just have a different understanding, or...view of the world, and of life... and for some reason, we just need to express ourselves in some type of physical form...which could be considerd a blessing, or a curse. I guess it just depends.

For now, I'm working on a lot of spray painted, abstract pictures/sculptures... And, I've done a few things I actually like... I think since I'm applying myself more to my art..I'm appreciating it more..instead of, "oh...that looks cool...lets snap a picture". It's more of; "That makes me feel a certain emotion... i should capture it in some way or another...because I want to be able to understand that emotion, and to revisit it..."