11/19/2007... the gloomy monday

I heard my phone vibrating in the middle of health class, I pressed the side button to silence it. About a minute later i hear it again. I checked this time to see who it was. It was my aunt, i don't know why she was calling me. I didn't know why she would call me in the middle of school. As the bell rings i walk to the cafeteria thinking about what could possibly be wrong. I put my phone in my pocket breaking the school rules and walk to the bathroom.

I take out my phone and press call back. My cousin picks up telling me my grandma passed away in the morning. I ask if he was kidding, i knew he wouldn't kid about that sort of thing so i hung up immediatly. I sat in the stall and started to cry my eyes out. No one knew i was in the bathroom so everyone was enjoying their lunches. I walk back to the cafeteria five minutes after and i sit at my table and place my head down and cry. One person notices but keeps walking. My friend Sammie comes up to ask me what was wrong, and i tell her that my grandma had just passed away. She gives me a big hug and some of my friends take me to the bathroom and comfort me as i stand in the bathroom crying. My mom already knew and she was about to call me out of school so i walk to the office picking up my off campus pass with Valerie. My brother was already in front and he was planning to go to the hospital where my grandma was for the past three weeks.

My whole family was there crying and talking to eachother on what went wrong. My dad was there when it happened and i walked up to him and started to cry while i gave him a hug. I felt so bad because before i walked up to him he wasn't crying and when i did walk up to him he started to cry. My family was comforting. I loved our closenit family.. we were all so close to my grandma. I walked into the room and there she was. My grandma was lying in the same bed she was in for the past three weeks. She was so peaceful.

She was diagnosed with cancer the week before. No one told me and i found out by listening to the doctor talk about Chemotherapy.

I felt guilty because i was supposed to visit her the night before but instead i had to spend the night finishing my homework for monday. I felt guilt inside which made me cry even more. I couldn't control my sadness.

My dad told me that when my grandpa came we couldn't cry because he didn't know yet. I felt so bad for my grandpa, they have been together for about 50 years. All i could think about was my grandpa and how he was going to be alone. My entire family was there and it felt good to be in their presence.

We had to wait to plan the wake and the funeral because one of my aunts was in Mexico and we are trying to bring her over here.

My grandma passed away on Monday 11/19/2007 around 9:30 am.... i will never forget her and she will always be in my heart.

-this is just a personal post..

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