So here it goes....
This is a subject that is so hard to talk about.
We all seem to shy away from this subject even if it has touched our lives in a profound way.
I will admit right now...
I have made two suicide attempts so far in my life and also had a fight with cutting...
Looking back on it now, it feels so stupid...
I was always the strong one of my friends.
When one of my friends threatened suicide I got her help.
Then about a year after that I started falling down.
I fell into this pattern of life where I never lived for me, I did everything for my family...
I hit a hard point of life and I wanted to run..I couldn't run and it got worst...
Here I am three years later
Ive started living life for me a little more.
Found some people I could trust and that would always be there for me
I wont lie and say everything is perfect...Its not
and everyday is a struggle against myself.
Once you have hit bottom and attempted suicide its a part of you forever.
I will always have it in the back of my mind...
But life goes on
and things change
You have to take each day one day at a time
and remember
Suicide solves nothing.
Suicide is giving up and leaving all your friends and family wondering.
Leaving them hurt.
By committing suicide you are leaving your problems but creating new ones for your loved ones.
I used to pray at night and kept on wishing that I'd be the first one in my family to do. I didn't want to die alone and go through funerals of my friends and family members. Then I realized how selfish I was so I adjusted my attitude. Things are looking better although I have doubts every now and then. You're right. Suicide is stupid. I'm so glad I'm still alive.
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its weird how you can look back on those low moments from a happy moment and every thought seems stupid, especially suicide.
Im glad your still alive too.
~ Be so strong that nothing can disturb your piece of mind~
Yeah. But hey, we all learn from our mistakes. Imagine what cancer victims, especially young kids, have to go through every day to stay alive. When I look at them, they put me into shame. I am a healthy person, yet I want to throw my life away. I should have just give my body to those who are unfortunate. We should work together on helping other people realize how bad suicide is. Hopefully, it's not too late....
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I get what you mean. I would love to helo people realize how bad suicide is.
~ Be so strong that nothing can disturb your piece of mind~
I was the strong one too. I had a bad 4 years. I didn't attempt to kill myself, but only because my fiancée was there to stop me. Thank God for that.
Life does get better... but not always as much as you want it to.
Keep strong.
Crying is a strength. Being able to share your story/emotions is a strength.
And this same progeny of evils comes from our debate, from our dissension; We are their parents and original. -- A Midsummer Night's Dream Act II, Scene I, Lines 115-117
I give you the most credit for telling you story, or part of it! I can not believe the trouble it must be....I used to be a cutter and i'm not going to lie, i've thought about suicide and how easy it would make my life, but then i look at the fact that it will hurt my family. I lost a loved one, a bf of 7 years, my first i was 12 when we ment and 19 when he died....the heartache it caused all of us and the things that i still to this day hate and can't deal with. I could never do that! I'm glad that you realize the good parts and that your life is worth something...keep up the good work!
Im sorry that you and your family had to go through that.
~ Be so strong that nothing can disturb your piece of mind~
Im sorry that you and your family had to go through that.
~ Be so strong that nothing can disturb your piece of mind~
I like to be honest and if anyone wants to know more of the story i will share. Life is hard and we all face tough times. I want to find a way to help people who have hit bottom come back from it. Suicide stays with you forever and becomes a huge part of who you are.
~ Be so strong that nothing can disturb your piece of mind~
when i tried commiting suicide none of that came to mind
i just thought that if i did things would get better 4 every1 else but then...
sometimes i still believe that
but my dreams keep me alive
Normally in that moment it does seem like the perfect escape...
But you have to remember the bad isnt forever.
You have to take each day as it comes and know tomorrow has promise for a better day.
Find a friend to confide in so that at those low moments that perfect escape doesnt take over you.
~ Be so strong that nothing can disturb your piece of mind~
my story is the same exact thing. im sure some minor details are different but i have gone through it too. i myself also helped a friend in need, then turned around and needed it for myself. its a tough thing to go through teenage years and have to deal with everything we have to deal with. sometimes it seems like the only answer. and for me...well im glad i had some friends that helped me.