I'm so sick of not having anything to do or anybody to hang out with. It's so boring and so lonely. I've recently read the sisterhood of the traveling pants series and it really makes me jeaslous and kinda depressed. I've never had that close of a friend. It really hurts to not have somebody who cares about you. It's so lonely when you have no one to help you with your problems or hug you when you're down or just plain old hang out with. But my friendships are a completely diffrent story. Teenagers these days are so worried about what other people think about them then how they treat others. Does nobody care about other people anymore?
It seems like everybody just wants to get drunk and act like a fool because they think that is cool and that that will impress people. What total idiots. If people dont accept you for who you are then they're not worth it. I know it's difficult to not have many friends but I would rather not have friends then have friends who only like me because they make fun of me when I am thrased.
I've seen so many people mainly girls act this way. They're just asking to be embarresed or ridiculed or hurt or even raped. Do they really have no dignity. And of course when something does happen it's not their fault. Such idiots. When will they ever learn. What happened to those sweet innocent people who were scared to talk to the person they like and actually have dignity and dont need alcohol to have fun.
I know I'm being a little extreme. Some people drink to let go or have fun or unwind but you dont need to get wasted every other night. The teenagers in my town get drunk when ever it is possible. I think it's ridiculus. It's not like I'm completeley against drinking it's just insane that when you go to school and nearly 75% of all the students are still drunk, baked or hung over.
I bet half of my friends and nearly all of my high school are at a party right now and are getting drunk. I'd rather be dancing to music or watching movies or just being bored with my friends then watching how alcohol changes them. Unfortunatly my friends are like that. I cant wait to get out of this town and meet some really people.
I agree. That's all I have to say 'cause I'm really tired. Alcohol bad, nothing on a Saturday night bad too.
I understand how you feel darling. I am my mothers only child so I learned to entertain myself at an early age. As i got older i started to feel like you. I have a huge family and i always had cousins to play with, but i went home and i was the only kid there. My mom was really suspicious about everyone so she rarely let me go to sleepovers...or to any of my friends homes at all without meeting their parents (which she didnt have time to do...so basically it never happened). Friends are great to have, but as i begin to get older and realize more about myself, i have very low tolerance for people, so i am very selective of the people i choose to call friends. You seem like you may be like this one day. I dont tolerate stupidity, narrow minds, or childishness. Drinking is another thing, most of my friends love to drink, pop pills, or smoke weed. I've done them all as well. When i got drunk for the first time i was 16, and hadnt been drunk before, i've never been drunk that way since, and barely drink now, im not to fond of potential brain damage and memory loss so i let go of the other 2 as well. Being that messed up all the time costs money, money that i could put to use in better ways. You dont realize that when youre a kid and bored with your life, even though you should probably be focused on school. But it seems that you have your head on straight, just make sure it stays that way.
As far as you wishing you were out...i understand that too. I told my friend that i wish i had a real girlfriend...(not any of the sluts that i had previously delt with that happened to have boyfriends and thought it would be great to try something different) and she told me that i shouldnt look to anyone else to make me happy. She also said i wasnt missing out on much, but i've never had a real relationship with anyone. So missing out or not i just want to know how it feels. I didnt have any close friends in school either, we moved around every other year so i didnt have the chance, so i completely hear where youre coming from.
"Prefiero morir parada que vivir la vida en mis rodillas"
I know where you're coming from, my friend. Unlike most of my peers (Peers, not friends), I have some sense of morality and self-respect, and therefore I have no wish to go out, hook up with random people, or get drunk, or whatever else those people do that I do not care to think about. I have been dubbed a good-girl, prude, and old-fashioned ( I don't see why these things would be bad, but if I may say so, I'm definitely not old fashioned). Because of my reputation (or lack of) people who don't even know me ignorantly label me as boring, anti-social, and cold-hearted (I bluntly refuse to flirt and/or give in to flirting): why can't they actually take the time to see who I really am? My close friends know the truth: I like to have a good time and all that, just without the alcohol and flirting.
I would love to be able to go out with friends, but I also want to keep my priorities in line. I'm a senior in high-school, and I'm busy with schoolwork and scholarships. I barely have free time for myself, so I never really get to see my friends outside of school (unless it's a long weekend/ break). Once I have my college situation secured, then I might have time for friends, but for now, I'm somewhat content being the quiet, weird, reserved girl who cares about what her future holds.
100% exactly how I feel! It's like all of my old friends just want to smoke weed and get drunk all the time... I used to be in that scene, and it was great... Until I got sick of waking up in the morning and thinking "God, I really made an ass of myself last night." And trust me, it got really old, really fast. I lost pretty much all of my girl friends, and now my friend circle is all boys. Which is fine, except it definitely still feels a little empty to not have that circle of girls to have sleepovers with, and that group of girl friends to just gossip with... I don't know if I would ever trade my guys... But it definitely leads to some lonely Saturday nights.